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You know.. for years now, I've been trying to fix myself.
Fix everything.
Every bad emotion.
I didn't used to always be this way..
I mean- I once had belief in humanity.
But.. it was because I was blocked from the bad in the world.
For the longest time, I was censored in an uncensored world.
And because of that..
I never got to know just how many dangers were even in my room.
But.. eventually, someone took the filter off.
I can't remember who. Even if I did, I wouldn't say.
But honestly.. it's the best thing someone's done.
I was finally able to see how damned we really were.
We are a fucked up species, we do fucked up things, and we fuck up others.
We are the monsters parents scare their children with.
We are people.
And because of these reasons, and more, I'm just so.. down. So.. scared. Depressed.
I know that the positive things that come out of people's mouths.. are not true.
Even if they are true, they're more forced than anything.
In other words.. it's reputation.
I'm so.. tired of it.
I've ran out of ideas to fix myself.
Hm.
I'll probably delete this later. I'm not sure yet.
