I wish one of my friends would just hold me at this point.
Like, just wrap their arms around me, and let me think. Hard. About everything I have ever done.
Every mistake I have ever made.
Every silly little crush I've had.
I'm gonna see if I can invite someone tomorrow. Maybe. Would any of my irl friends be able to stay a night? I really would like that.
It's all I want, really.
To just have someone.
I'm so... down. I miss everyone. And I hate this stupid birthday of mine. But.. I'll take it as an excuse.
I just want my friends back.
All of my friends.
Being away from everyone.. it makes me feel like I've done something wrong. I want someone to laugh with again, someone sitting next to me.
Talking about our siblings, watching stupid videos, even arguing.
I miss everything.
So here I am, around 11:30 PM, just waiting for my dumb day.
Waiting to see my friends again.
Waiting for school to start.
Waiting to have my art noticed.
Waiting for something to change.
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I miss you all.
I miss my ex, my friends, my silly little happiness.
I wish.. I wish summer was over already.
So I can meet new people, make enemies, act dumb when I'm actually smart.
I...
I'm so.. lonely.
