I keep telling myself
that you're not good enough for me
and that I have always been better looking,
smarter and above you
when it comes to the statistics
of our society's radar of popularity.
But when I see you two together,
when I hear your name escape her mouth,
I am overwhelmed
with jealousy and anger
and I try to tell myself
that you two deserve each other
and that I don't need your toxicity in my life.
At the end of the day,
I still break into a state of weakness and vulnerability I've been hiding from for so long,
and whimpers would escape,
i could never admit that i needed you,
but my body language
always gave it away
