A SPECIAL GIRL

The confession

I woke. I got a bit surprised when I saw Newt, still laying next to me, because I thought last night was all a dream. But luckily it wasn't. But I don't think Newt feel the same way about me. He was just being sweet to me, because that's just his personality. I don't think he can help it.
I tried to get up, but Newts arm was laying around my waist, surprisingly quite tight. I must have woken him, when I tried to get up, because suddenly his eyes was open. "Oh I'm sorry" he said embarrassed and removed his arm from my waist. When he removed it, he touched my bare skin, and it sent electric waves through my whole body. I blushed but looked away, so Newt wouldn't notice. I got up from bed. "Well thank you for staying. I should properly get going" I said. I turned around to look at him for just a second and then I left out of the door. I began to walk towards the the fire-place, which was a place where meeting and celebrations were held. It was a sand-area with multiple benches around. Around the fire-place all the other people's houses also laid. Almost everyone had a house of their own, but some slept together in pairs or in sleeping halls.
I walked over to a bench and sat down. "Good morning" someone said behind me. I turned around and saw Thomas. I smiled to him, and then he sat down next to me on the bench. "So, are you exited about the celebration tonight" he asked me. "What?" I asked him confused. He laughed a bit, like it was some obvious thing I should have known about. "There are being hold a celebration tonight, for, you know, celebrating that we made it here" he said. I nodded understanding. There were a few silent moments, until Thomas finally said something. "So y/n. You and Newt?" He then said sassy. I laughed and then replied "oh that's nothing. He is just being nice". Thomas looked at me and then said "I have seen Newt being nice, and THAT is not just nice. And besides I have seen the way he looks at you" I thought about it for a while, but it couldn't be true. "Oh please, Newt doesn't see me that way" I then said to Thomas. He just looked at me, then got up and winked. Newt were just being nice to me because of what WCKD did to me. That was it.
"Oh there you are" Brenda said while she approached me. I looked at her in confusion. "You have to help me getting everything ready for tonight. Now come on" she then said. I nodded and got up from the bench, and followed her. We went to a tent where Jorge, Frypan and Newt were. I avoided Newts look when I stepped inside.
Jorge and Frypan mostly did all the talking and planning about what was going to happen and so on. They planned to have a fire in the middle, and some activities around the place. Brenda and I sat and talked on one of the benches inside the tent. We mostly just talked about the evenings celebration, and what we were going to do. Then Newt came over and sat down next to me. I could see Brenda smiling to me. "So what are we talking about?" Newt said. I could feel his arm up against my arm. I tried to control my feelings. "Oh nothing really. Just talking. Right Brenda?" I then said, not looking at him. Brenda didn't pay attention to the conversation, but sat there and starred and smiled. I could feel Newt looking at me, and so my emotions forced me to look at him too. I looked into those irresistible eyes. He smiled at me and moved his hand towards my face. I had no idea what he was doing. Then he pulled my hair behind my ear and stroke my face with the tip of his fingers. I could feel my cheeks growing warm, so I quickly looked away. "Well I should properly get going. I'll see you tonight" he said while he stood up. I didn't say anything, but just gave him a little smile. I looked back at Brenda and then she said "you two are so cute. Something is definitely happening tonight between the two of you". I laughed and pushed her silly thought away. "Nothing is going to happen. He is just being sweet to me" I then commented. "Oh yeah, sure, sweet" she said sassy and laughed. I got up and left, to go back to my room. I sat in the door opening and looked out into the ocean. You couldn't even see land or an ending to the ocean. It was infinite. And infinite blue, beautiful sea. I sat there for hours.
Then I could hear people beginning to talk and meet at the fire-place. I suppose the celebration was about to start now. I got up and made my way over to the others. I sat with Brenda, Thomas and Fry. We sat on the sand next to the fire. We were drinking some very bad-tasting drink. But everyone kind of did it, so yeah. It was weird I haven't seen Newt yet. I looked for him many times in the crowd, but no sign of him. "You're looking for the little boyfriend of yours" Thomas commented with a laugh in his voice. I just laughed at him and hit him friendly on the shoulder. We sat there for a very long time and the sun began to drift away, and was replaced by the moon, but no one seemed to be tired. I mostly talked to Thomas. He was very nice to talk with and really listened to me. He was also kind of funny, which just made it a whole lot better. We were dancing around the fire-place. Me and Thomas were holding each other hands and jumping around. It was so funny. Then he ran behind me and took his arms around my waist and lifted me up and spinned around with me. I laughed so hard. Then he put me down, and looked over my shoulder "look who's over there" he said and pointed behind me. A bit away I could see Newts blonde hair. He looked a bit sad. He was starring me, and made a nod with his head, as a sign that I should come over to him. I looked back at Thomas. "Well it ain't me he wants over there" Thomas said sassy. I smiled and laughed ironic to him, but then I happily walked towards Newt. He smiled to me when I was standing right in front of him. "I haven't seen you tonight" I said to break the silence. He just kept smiling. "Let's go for a walk" he said while he reached out to grab my hand. The electric waves ran through my body once again. I followed him. It was quiet at first but then he said, with a little bit sadness in his voice "I saw you were having fun with Thomas tonight". I didn't look at him."Oh, yeah he's a really great friend" I just said while we still were walking. We walked further and further away from the noice of the other people. "Just friends?" He asked, still not looking at me. "Yes. Trust me. Nothing but friends. He's just being nice to me and talking with me all night, since you haven't really been here all night" I said a bit sad. He squeezed my hand. We were walking in between all of the little houses. Then he stopped, and looked at me. He gently pushed me up against one of the walls of the houses. "I don't want you and Thomas to be more than friends" he said while looking into the ground, still holding my hand. I looked at him confused. "Why?" I asked. He looked up at me. He was silent for a few seconds and then said "because... because I want to us to be more than friends, and I was staying away tonight, trying to oppress my feelings for you y/n, but I can't. I want you". I was surprised. This whole time I just thought Newt was being nice to me as a friend. And everyone else could see it, but me. "I want that too, but I didn't think you felt that way about me" I said and now it was me looking into the ground. It took some courage to say that out loud. He took his fingertips under my chin, lifting my head, forcing me to look into his eyes. I noticed how close our faces were to each other's. He moved his hand to the side of my cheek. He leaned closer to my face. There were only few inches between his lips and mine. And then he filled in the space and put his lips on mine. It felt nice and so longful. He took his other arm around my waist, pulling me even closer to him. I could feel his muscular body, even through our clothes. I took my arms around his neck, and moved my hands up into his hair. I dont know how long the kiss lasted, it felt like forever, and I wanted it to last forever. We pulled away from each other. I looked him in the eyes again, he now had the biggest smile on his face I had ever seen. He pulled me into a tight and safe hug. It felt so nice. Then we walked down to the sea and sat there and looked out, while holding each other. I sat in between Newts legs, with his arms around me, leaning up against his chest. I grew more and more tired, and Newt noticed. He lifted me up in bridal style and carried me back to my room and laid me in my bed. He kissed me on my forehead and said "goodnight love". I smiled and then I felt asleep, more happy than yesterday.