She makes her way.. Through It All.

Chapter 1

We sit on my bed comfortably as he firmly asks, "I haven't asked you about your life cz you were hardly interested in sharing what you've been through, but I really want to know how strong has my ranger been?"

I knew somehow this time his question couldn't go unanswered, and he wouldn't even let me flip on to some other shit knowing the fact that he notices it every time I turn on to the other topic when he asks about my past... This time I had to, and I did...

Ryan and I had been in a relationship for over 6 years now, seeing me crawl, get up, fall again and rise even higher, he knows I owe my perseverance to something in my past, which I am not yet comfortable talking about, with him. He has known my kith and kin very closely by now, yet each of them holds a certain silence about my past life. The dark zone I never wished he wishes to visit, but he does.

Ryan was the boy I met when I started with my college. Lost in my own thoughts I came out of my college colliding with the one who could make everything just so easy. Hazel Brown eyes with a dusky complexion that surely and truly complemented each other with his hair, a tone of brown as the cherry on the top. He had strong built which is completely an outcome of his regular gymming, the guy looked handsome, hot or whatsoever!

He was dressed up in a white T Shirt that simply accentuated his abbs, with a blue jeans. Oh gosh, this was the first time I was studying a boy, I literally was!! And that too when?? When I had completely smashed myself into him for no reason than my anger!

When I was done with studying him, I noticed him holding my books in his arms. OMG! Had I been too busy staring at the boy, whom I just saw that I hardly noticed him acknowledging my stare and still lifting up all the books I had dropped.

"oh.. umm..I-I so sorry I just hit you.. I was in a complete hurry a-and didn't see you approaching."

That's when he started to laugh, LAUGH LOUD. I couldn't help but attain a furious look that made him shut up.

Seeing him shut up made me burst into laughter and we both started laughing our heads off!! He introduced himself as Ryan and told me that he has noticed me several times walking in a complete daze unaware of the world surrounding me, yet had always found a sudden spark within me.

He offered me to walk with him and as we did, he mentioned how his eyes had always rested on me whenever he saw me here in the CAMPUS area. I apologized for not having recognized his presence. But then I realized that I hadn't been courteous enough to introduce myself to him.

"By the way, I am..." I was half cut within my sentence as he spoke,

"Samaira" and gave a warm heart melting smile. I was taken aback by the fact that he already knew my name.

Seeing my eyes popping out of the little slits, he grinned and told me that he asked one of his friends about me the first time he had noticed me walking.

Now, that made me BLUSH!

He asked me for a coffee at the nearest CCD, but wait, I'd forgotten why I had been too furious.

It was Kabir. My awfully cute little brother of 9. He had called me and told me that he wouldn't be doing the assignment I had left back at home for him. Having an argument with him over phone made me angry and led to the amazing SMASH between us two.

Doesn't that sound just too quick? But that's how it was!

Mentioning him about Kabir, I bid him a bye and promised to see him the next morning and he assured me of his presence just at the spot where we met.

On my way back home, all I could think was HIM. Yes, Ryan, whom I'd barely met for 10 minutes, yet the thought of him made me smile or blush, whatever it is called in the language of those "oozy" girls.

When I reached back home, I saw Kabir doing the assignment he had prior denied to do over the phone. Giving him a tight tight hug, I got busy with my regular schedule of teaching Kabir, the part of my day that I loved doing the most. Not because I intended to be a teacher, but because, Kabir was an amazingly intelligent child and an active learner. It was fun teaching him. I could actually feel myself exploring new depths with each query that generated in his little but curious mind.

Dhun, my elder sister made her way to our room, completely exhausted and landed over directly onto the bed beside us. I and Kabir giggled a little and then got back to our work.

Dhun keeps busy with her schedule and comes home completely tired and hardly talks to us before having a nap. That's how she is. A pretty girl with bright features and a well maintained physique, she has her beautiful curly hair reach her waist. Yes, she is BEAUTIFUL!! But right now, TIRED!!

She sprung her head up in exasperation baffled by the amount of noises made by me and Kabir. She threw a pillow at us indicating us not to speak that loud or maybe just to end our conversation.

And, to her surprise we laughed even louder!!

Springing up to sit on the bed she extended angry glares and then turned to ask me, "What makes you smile so much today?"

And there, I flushed! My cheeks got a color of something near to a fresh lush cherry!

Promising her to tell the entire story I check my phone. And I blushed even more. Noticing my expressions Dhun seized the phone from my hand to find a new friend request on facebook. Giving me an amused look, she asks,

"What's so much to blush about? Is it the only friend request you've got in months?"

That made me blush even more! Taking my phone back into my hand I accepted the request which was from none other than Ryan.

And a message flashed,

Ryan: Hey.. Recognized me already?

Me: Yea.. why wouldn't I?

Ryan: Umm.. yeah I just thought you won't so..

Me: Chill boy... ;) there's nothing to worry about. Btw ssup?

Ryan: Just lost in my own little bubble.

Me: Thinking of what?

That's when Dhun popped in between and I bid him goodnight and again promised to meet him. At night, after switching off the light, I and Dhun switched to our usual routine of sharing the day. That's when her curiosity reached its heights and she punched me in stomach to spill what I had. I told her how I trashed into him and the way I checked on a boy for the first time in my life. As expected, her mouth formed an 'O' as long as I was finished telling her about Ryan.