Unknown boy || major editing

Chapter 12

*trigger warning*
*self harming*

From: Caleb
"How are you?"
How am I? He dares ask me that after he abandoned me for a whole year? I felt this urge to throw him off, and that's exactly what I did. The night was going horribly, and my cab driver was talking about something about baseball, so I decided to just ignore him until he shut up.

To: Caleb
"How dare you ask me that after not talking to me for a whole year? You knew how much I needed a friend and you still left without an explanation. So how am I? I am fucking great.

"I am fucking great"
The words rang in my ears. I didn't want to lie to him but I had to. I couldn't give him the power to know I was suffering. The cab comes to a halt and I see the dark, depressing building I live in. I pay the driver and start walking the stairs to my apartment.

The inside of the apartment had this glommy look. Ever since my sister, Andrea, move out with her boyfriend, my mom hasn't been the same. Mom got a boyfriend, but I'm not sure how's that going, she's hardly ever at home. My sister got pregnant and decided the best way to raise her baby was moving with her boyfriend, Matthew. My mom didn't approve, but since when my sister has listen to my mom?

I noticed mom left me 10 bucks on the counter, with a little note saying that she wouldn't come home for the night so I should order food for myself. I felt my phone vibrate on my back pocket so i take it out.

Incoming call: Sebastian <3

I didn't feel like talking with that piece of shit, so I rejected his call. I decided to order Chinese food, so I called the store near my apartment. I put Jane The Virgin on the TV and waited for my food to arrive.

After 20 minutes of laughter, i heard the doorbell ring. I was super hungry so I jumped from the couch and hurriedly open the door. Sebastian was standing there with his phone in his hand.

"What the fuck are you doing here?"

His expressions change, I could notice he knew something was wrong.

"You left me hanging at the drive in, I kept waiting for you but you didn't arrived"

I felt instant anger towards him. He seriously thought I didn't see him giving his number to that girl?

"You exchange numbers with a blondie and told her I was only your friend. Don't even try to make me believe you weren't hitting on her. We're over. Don't ever come back here."

He opened his mouth as if to say something, but I'm pretty sure he decided it against it because he closed it instantly. I went to close the door on his face, but he started talking, so I leave it open for a minute.

"I never even like you. You were such a pain in the ass. I only date you because of a bet with some friends saying I couldn't get a high school girl to date me. Hope you have a shitty life and good night." And with that, he left.

I felt my heart hit the floor. The delivery guy came, I paid and instantly close the door. He didn't like me. I was just a game to him, to win a bet. I felt the attack coming. I could feel it in my throat that at any moment I would have difficulty to breathe. I started to cry. Thanks to him I was 1 year clean. I felt the urge, and hurried to my bathroom. I opened the drawer and see the shiny little thing that would instantly make me feel better. I start to press it on my skin, and I feel the hot liquid falling on the floor. Maybe this is all I need right now.

Hiiiii, I wrote again and I feel good. I think this was all cringe worthy but again, sorry, it's been so long.