Life as a Poet

I Love You

Looking at you I'm not as afraid as i usually am

I don't feel my thoughts trying to make sense of everything around me

I take a deep breath and just focus on you

The way you smile

The way your always quiet

The way your like nothing I've ever known before

I'm don't feel so confused in the emotions i barely understand

I don't feel embarrassed that i want to try to hold your hand

You seem like a stranger but I do know you

When i look at you everything goes silent for the rest of the period

I can focus on a task in hand but you're still on my thoughts

Though I'm afraid

I'm afraid that you look at me and you see something you can use

Someone who can be easily manipulated

Because i can be

But I know you couldn't do that to me

It wasn't a spark or anything

Just warmth

I may be stupid for thinking about something like that

Or desperate to have someone as my own

That i could be good too

And treat right

I don't know if you'll ever give me that chance

And to be honest i won't take it for myself

I'm not bold like that

I probably never will be

But i know you're different and i want to try

But i just don't know how

Because to be frank

I'm not just afraid about getting hurt or hurting you

I'm nervous that it won't be like they say it is

That it's just another heartbeat

What I'm trying to say is that I feel something for you

I'm not as nervous

I don't feel my thoughts and fears pounding at my head

You make me feel calm in a way that i haven't felt before