I should believe what you tell me to
I should just do what you tell me to
Of course, I need to be
Exactly what you tell me
The love I feel is wrong
You say you love me
But will you love me when you learn the truth
Or will you reject me because you despise
The way I live my life.
I've always know what you didn't like
So I'd always try to hide
Pretend to be like you want
When I wanted something else
All these hopes and dreams
For when I can be free
Get away and finally be me
But I still care about you
And I don't wanna lose you
You kinda make me happy
And I'm so confused
Will you hate me if I come out
And let you know the truth
See the parts of me I hide away
Or will I always be too dark
Will I always be too depressing
Will I never be happy
That's how it is in your eyes
Do you know how it hurts
Knowing I'm not good enough
Do you know how much it hurts
Knowing I could be all alone
If you found out the truth
Feeling like I have to lie
To keep my home and survive
I'd love to tell the truth
But I'm honestly terrified
That you'll hate me for it
That you'll kick me out for it
I'm scared of what you might say
I know I'm not who you want me to be
And I have no plans to change
But I want to believe you love me
But how can I be sure
When you talk about how much you hate it
All those times I can't forget
You blame them on me
It's only ever cause of me
I resent you for it
But I forgive you for it
But you still see me as a monster
You say I have no morals
You treat me as though I'm a psycho
For getting angry.
You've taught me to hate myself
For a simple emotion
You told me to be ashamed
That I ever got angry
It was wrong
I would hate everything about me
I'd warn others to be careful
Cause I thought there was something wrong
That's what you all taught me
But when they hit me
But when he choked me
But when they hurt me
It was normal, it was okay
But if I'd do what they did
You'd act like I was a monster
You'd act like I just killed a man
And so I thought I was awful
I thought I was someone to hate
But I regret thinking that way
For I need not be sorry
For getting angry.
Will you reject me
For my beliefs
Will you make me leave
For who I love
Will I be enough
If I'm not what you want
I care about you
But will you tell me to go
Because you know the truth?
