Secrets and What If's

chapter one

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~ Johnny's POV ~
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I find myself once again daydreaming in math class, trying to figure out a way out of this hell hole just to have a dart, I figure, why not just leave? I get my phone out of my pocket and in one swift movement, I've texted Hayden, Carson, and Aaron telling them to meet me in the boy's locker rooms for a quick smoke to forget about my troubles.

As I make my way out of the classroom, I hear the teacher yelling at me, telling me to sit back down in my seat, I turn back around looking at Mr. Grey for a moment before giving him the finger and walking out towards the locker rooms, while walking I run into someone I've seen so many times before, my next door neighbour, Mackenzie Ziegler.

Six years ago I probably would've said hello to her in the halls and given her the best hug I've ever given, except I'm not 11 anymore, nor is it six years ago. We used to be best friends, hanging out every chance we could get, she and her siblings moved from Pennsylvania 12 years ago right next to my house, but now, we don't talk at all because of the stupid thing she did and I guess you could say my stubbornness is part of the reason too.

We both come from fucked up families, my dad is never around and when he is, all he does is criticise and tell me I was the mistake, meaning I was never supposed to happen, my dad is a jerk. After my mother died he became the person we never thought he'd be, bringing home random girls and then kicking them out the next day, needless to say, we hated the girls he brought home, they were practically prostitutes and he drank 24/7. It wasn't a pretty site when he was drunk, not at all.

Mackenzie and her family are a whole new story. Her dad and my dad could get along very well, Kenzie's dad use to beat her and Maddie, I'm not sure if he still does but I know he use to. their mother left Mackenzie and Maddie when Kenz was three. I don't know the full story, but hey, there is some for you.

Mackenzie still hangs out with my sister, Lauren, so I see Kenzie all the fucking time because she's always over and she lives next door. It's so hard to forget about her which is the most frustrating part about seeing her. Kenzie's fucked with my brains and my trust.

"Hey Johnny" Kenzie states nervously, interrupting my train of thought. "Yeah, hi" I blandly reply while walking off, as you can see I'm not in the mood to be polite, I just want to see my boys and have a the few darts that I've been itching for, for the past week.

"Wait, Johnny" I roll my eyes and turn around dramatically, "what do you want Mackenzie," I ask calling be her by her first name, which makes her scrunch up her face, she hates it when people call her by her first name.

"Um, why aren't you in class?" I could tell she was going to ask something completely different but I answer her question anyway, "why aren't you in class?" I ask emphasising the you. "Well none of us really wanted to go to class so we just sat in the locker rooms" she's basically doing the exact same thing I'm about to do, and by we, she means her, Lauren, Brynn, Ruby, Nadia and Annie.

"Yeah, okay... Bye" I went to walk off but she caught me off guard when she asked, "I know you're going to smoke with the others and the girls and I were wondering if we could join you?" I give it some thought, not really knowing how to answer I just shrug my shoulders, "I have bud and darts to share" instead of giving her an answer I just nod and show her the way to the boy's locker rooms.

No one comes in here unless they need to and now's not the time... see I'd know because I'm on the football team, actually I'm captain so I know when the locker rooms are being used. That time is not right now so I use it to our advantage.

It's a quiet walk towards the locker rooms, when I turned the corner I saw all of the girls standing at the door waiting, what the fuck? How'd they know where we were going? "Oh, I texted them while we were walking" Kenzie states obviously seeing my confusion.

I just nod in response and give them a wave telling them to join us, they all give out a bunch of exaggerated comments like "eww" and "I knew boys stunk, but I didn't think it was that bad" or "yucks" they say when walking in, seeing that Carson, Hayden and Aaron are already here I give them the cigarettes while they look over at the commotion and then giving a confused look like the one I gave Kenzie beforehand.

"They wanted to come," I tell the boys, "ohhh," Hayden says while lighting his dart so he could smoke it. "Give me the bud," I say turning to Kenzie to take the bag from her, what the hell, are they serious? "How much money did you spend on this? You've got like a 70g bag here!" I state looking over at the bag in shock, " yep, that's a 70 bag" that's going to enough for like 50 people to have a least 5 cones! I look over at her with a shocked expression.

"well... do you have your bong with you?" Carson asks, expecting at least one of them to have theirs with them, "hey, you can't just assume that we have a bong, we're not total druggies" Hayden, Carson, Aaron and I look at them like they're dumb.

"Kenzie we aren't stupid, we know that at least one of you carries it around the school, which is dumb by the way, but hey, free bud... so who has it?" Aaron states. His statement made me laugh a bit more then it should've but I laughed even harder when Annie gave Aaron her bong in shame. Oh, that was hilarious.

What are you doing to me Kenzie...
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A/N - that's chapter one, done! Thanks for reading, next chapter should be out soon if not, it'll be out within a week. Please tell me how I've done and try and get this voted? Thanks x

Word count - 1100