Where I'm Goin

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     Okay, since this is the beginning of the book you're probably wanting something like 'My life was drab and no one loved me so I planned to run away from all my problems with someone I used to be best friends with but have since grown apart from' but that's not how it went.

     My life was actually really good. Even though I had no friends and everyone outside of my family actively hated me for no reason it was nice. Having no friends meant not having to worry about what I was doing Friday night. And it meant I could plan my life as I pleased. My mom was really my only family and I was ok with that. Even when Roger, the border, came into our lives I was ok with it. My entire life has been existing to comply.

     I never really had a best friend past Evangeline Mallory, whom of which I had a massive crush on when we were 9 and running through the streets of Elk Grove. Even then I would just go with whatever she wanted to do. I was always a pushover. Hell, up until now I only did whatever anyone asked me to and I never thought of myself at all. I even switched lockers with Annalese Niché because hers was right next to the trash can that was almost never emptied.

     But that's who I was- am. I am still that push over deep down. Of course my mom was always a pusher anyway.
     'Get better grades or you'll never get anywhere in life' she would say.
     'Get a job so you can build up experience for a better job' Yet every job I got was terrible.
     'Eat your greens so you can grow big and strong.' was her favorite to say. Well mom you were right, I'm about 6'1 and I can pick up most anything with general ease.
     ‘Don’t read so much your eyes will stop working.’ She was right there too, my prescription lenses are some of the most expensive.

     I don't know why she was always pushing me to do things. I mean the only thing I never succeeded at was her request that I make friends. But honestly I don't care.