❌🌹My Lolita Journal🌹❌

6/24/18

So, I woke up earlier than I expected and I got a little stain on my bed, it was blood :(. AND IT SUCKS. So As I woke up my grandma gave me and my sis some pound cake with lipton tea and we ate it all but I had cramps and I still have them right now and I am just turning into a demon like evrey girl does when they have it. So it is currently 8:00am right now so yeah. By this time I was looking at yaoi pictures of ciel and sebastian from black butler, I SHIP THEM! I shouldn't tell my sis cause she is gonna beat my ass. So last night I was trying trying to make a body pillow of sebastian but it looked like ciel. XD. I was hungry last night and all we got to eat was fried rice and there was baby roaches on the floor and table, like A LOT. And they were talking about the time our dad's room was haunted so I got scared and they were talking about that skin walker thing 🎀.
So Cya I will update later so ^w^.
9:00-11:00am
So right now, I was gonna record a video but then I wanted to do something else so no. But anyways I am trying so hard to live a lolita life but it seems it isn't taking me anywhere. But, I can still try new things, perhaps if I did, I could try changing the title of this story....
Any tips for begginers? I am poor so I can' buy any cutesy dresses and stuff. I wanted to draw, but I am losing motivation. It has been a while since I had been posting things on my channel, I never really cared tho. I had always wanted to sing but I sing badly so life wouldn't be so fun afterall, also I have anxiety so I could be writing things I fear, but gosh it is so hot right now! That would explain why I would write such things, I also am sad that evreytime someone likes something I did my sis gets jealous and I don't like hurting people. I extremely Hate doing anything like that because I never wish for that to happen and all. Also I realised not alot of you people have read my story, well, I guess it's just me all alone. Cya 🌸🔪🌷.
1:00pm.
So I was alone for a while and my sis and dad and brother went to walmart and I was home alone drawing and stuff then when they came home my sis got alot of stuff. She got a kinder egg suprise egg thingie with a car in it and then she got coke with earphones and stuff. As we were eating she got out her drink and so I wondered "Did I get one?" Then I looked in the bag nothing.
"Have they completely forgot about me?" I thought but I was probably thinking too much then she told me about how she had the kinder egg suprise thing and also we are the same age cause we are twins, then I realized they never really bought anything for me except a chicken sandwich. So I was thinking "Why didn't they buy me anything?" So I got a little upset because I was thinking they never really thought of me and my grandma (She is crazy sometimes tho) told me about how dad's favourite was my sis. At first I was like "Nah I'm pretty sure he likes both of us." I thought, But then after that incident? It makes me feel a little lower and maybe that's why I feel like no one really cares. Also see, I told you I would write sad things. 🎁🎀🔪.

6:00pm
So  I was watching an esskeetit  parody and it was so funny it's by Bart baker.  I kept on laughing because it was so funny. I am starving right now and it sucks I should of cooked fucking ramen! By the way, my dad took my FUCKING EAR PHONES AGAIN GODAMMIT!! !   I did not give him permission he just begged me like some guy in heat and he bought his own but he said "It doesn't have a microphone!" And it is just so annoying, I have my period, I'm hungry, and he took my earphones  when all I wanted  to do was listen to my godamn music but I have to deal with his shit. Like right now he's on  the phone he is like acting all stupid around my brothers friend but for some reason "THEY RE FRIENDS?!" omg I'm pissed off right now.  Anyways my sis said since I'm alone Grell is gonna make me sit up, and then he is gonna hump me really fast and all I said was "I don't care."
Gonna edit this later bye! 🎁🔪