(By the way, I didn't mean to come back with such a weird and deep-as-shit scenario but I had too many feels today)
Tonight, you just couldn't seem to sleep - which was odd considering that you were utterly exhausted.
You weren't overthinking anything, nothing was worrying or bothering you, and you hadn't had a bad day in a while.
So... what was it?
Huffing, you rolled over onto your side and faced Namjoon; snoring heavily with drool dripping down the side of his cheek. You still couldn't believe that you were dating this ethereal man.
Wiping the drool from his face, you began tracing his features with your fingers. His tightly-closed eyes alone held hundreds of promises, secrets and " I love you's ". The moment you had literally laid eyes on him, they had always been your favourite feature; from how they'd crinkle into moons when he was smiling or widen in compassion when you needed his comfort - his eyes alone could tell a thousand stories.
Inching slightly closer, you stroked your thumbs over his cheeks; more specifically his dimples. Numerous times had you pressed kisses onto his cheeks; purposely asking him to flash his dimples because you simply adored them. They made him seem all the more real to you; the small crevices making his angelic face feel real in your palms. Sometimes Namjoon could knock the breath out of your lungs, but the few pimples, bruises and dips on his skin brought you back down to reality.
It all seemed to dawn on you now as your thumb traced his lips - you couldn't rest because you hadn't really felt grounded in a while. Sometimes, we forget to remember that everything around us is real; that those exams you submitted a few months back were real, that your parents who may not be in contact with you as much anymore are still real - that every single day, you are really living.
"Namjoon" you whispered, on the brink of tears. His louder snores made you chuckle slightly, though the noise came out as merely a whimper through your tears. "Namjoon~" you shook him a little harder until his mesmerising eyes finally met yours again; proof that he really was real and was here with you right now.
"Hun? What's wrong? Nightmare?" he slurred - though you could tell just from his eyes that he was worried; they dilated just a tad. You wanted to tell him that you were fine, that you were randomly experiencing a rush of emotions, but you simply hiccuped again as you pulled his body closer towards you. You just needed to feel that he was really there.
You wrapped your arms around his torso in a tight hug, squeezing his body firmly to make sure this wasn't all a dream. Just yesterday you two had taken a walk through the park, and the day before that he'd slipped over in the grocery store. All of that, however rudimentary it may be, sometimes didn't feel like you had really lived it. Everyone needs grounding sometimes.
"Are you okay? You're scaring me, baby" he said tentatively whilst trying to pull back your face, just enough to wipe your tears; but you only forced your head further into his warm chest.
"You're r-really here" you choked out eventually, rubbing his arms to check that they were there as well. "Yeh, of course I am, Y/N" he smiled - though you couldn't see it. After he nudged your head again, you reluctantly pulled back only to stare up into his harried eyes.
"Is everything... okay?" he prompted gently, stroking your hair back out of your face. "Y-yeh... I'm sorry, I don't know what got into me... everything just felt like a dream for a moment, y-you know?" you mumbled, playing with the ends of his shirt once the fear of him laughing at you had set in. "Ah I see, that's alright, Y/N... are you embarrassed?" he pouted. Defeated, you nodded.
"Sometimes... life doesn't feel real, because as we go about our day to day routine, we don't realise that we're actually living each day. We become too accustomed to daily life that it can be surprising when any changes occur - we take our days for granted" he began to ramble, sitting up slightly so that you could curl up in his lap.
"But it's okay to feel a little lost, everyone needs to be grounded once in a while" he grinned, kissing your forehead. "But, what if this is all a dream? It doesn't feel real" you sighed, shakily wiping your eyes. "Then I don't want to wake up..." Namjoon shrugged, draping an arm around your shoulder. "There are thousands of "What ifs" that we could ponder all day, but what matters right now is that you're here, you're breathing, you're healthy and I've got you, okay?".
You started to cry again as Namjoon peppered kisses all over your face, "There's no need to be upset, baby, I'm here" he forced a smile, trying not to sniffle as you seemed so vulnerable and small in his grip. "I've got you" he murmured, easing you to lie down with him.
"Sometimes, I can't believe that y-you're real" you hiccuped, then you traced his facial features again - feeling the skin dip as those dimples appeared again through his chuckling. "Trust me, I'm real, I'm just Namjoon. And you're real too, Y/N, don't sell yourself short. Every life is a miracle, that's why we should make the best of it".
You found yourself relaxing slightly as he rambled; his words bringing you back to Earth and making you feel calm, content again. "Thank you" you smiled genuinely, kissing his lips softly, "We all get a little lost sometimes, it happens. You just have to really feel each day, make it count" he kissed you back.
You soon fell asleep feeling slightly less burdened with the weight of the world off your shoulders - instead replaced by the weight of a very real Namjoon lying on top of you. His secure touch made you realise that, yeh, life can be very scary to comprehend sometimes, but there's always someone there to break it all down for you. To make you really embrace each day and accept the universe as it is.
Hello everyone!! Over 3 months and 27 exams later, I am finally freee for the summer! I can't wait to write again, I have so many scenario ideas for you guys, thank you for being patient. I love you all! My results will be out in 2 months so I hope my hard work will have paid off, I really appreciate all the support <3
I would just like to give a shoutout to this amazing Instagram account that I recently found which is beginning as an ASMR account, I think the concept is awesome so if you like ASMR, like me, I recommend it! Thanks guys, have a great day and/or evening! 😁
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