I Don't Like Your GF (Lams//Modern AU) ✖

~Seven~

   John and I agreed to tell Eliza that Monday. Guess what the fuck today is.

Monday.

Laurens and I were freaking out but had the kings as our support system, John was more worried than I was though, rightfully so, I mean: he didn't know Eliza like that...

I know her well...

This won't be pretty.

Eliza and I sat across from each other at the dining room table, I sipped my spiked coffee as the doorbell rang. "I got it Eliza." I stood up and walked to the door taking a deep breath as I walked. I opened the door and looked back at Eliza then John. "We're really doing it John." I whispered. Laurens nodded. "We are." he whispered in response while walking over to the dining room table as I closed the door behind the two of us.

Once we sat down, John was next to me and Eliza was across from me. I took a deep breath and sipped my coffee quickly remembering that my drink had scotch mixed into it. "So, what did we need to talk about?" Eliza asked the two of us with a smile. "Laurens?" he looked at me. "Oh," he looked back at Eliza.

"Alexander and I have something we need to tell you..." I looked down at my lap and held John's hand tightly under the table. "The two of us... god how to I say this?" Laurens sighed. "We've been dating each other behind your back..." I swear I could feel the fear radiating off of Laurens. "I know."

I looked up with widened eyes, John furrowed his brow. "WHAT?" we said simultaneously.

"Yeah. The two of you aren't very inconspicuous. I know you Alexander, anytime you talk about John you get flustered, you both hung out with the kings, double date I assume, plus, I've done my fair share of snooping and read some chat logs and emails, even listened to a few phone calls. You seem like you love each other." I looked at Laurens in complete and utter shock. "What the fuck..?" I mumbled more to myself. "I... I'm shocked." John added on.

"Alexander, I've given it a lot of thought and... I'll stay with you for publicity, but you don't have to sneak around with me. I'll let the two of you spend as much time together as you need." she offered with a familiar hurt undertone while looking off and taking a sip of her tea. "My god..." I muttered while retracting my hand and tangling both of my hands in my hair. "Holy shit..."

"I- I don't know how to respond, you don't even have any questions about how this started?" I asked. Eliza shrugged and put her mug down. "Well, how did it start?" she asked us. "We- we just kissed one day and-" Laurens cut me off. "It felt so right. I knew it was wrong but it felt so goddamn right. I was raised in a catholic household so I was never exposed to much homosexuality, only the slurs my parents would throw around. I didn't think there was anything wrong with it but when I realized what I was doing I had to... I had to have him." John looked over at me.

I blushed lightly and looked back at Eliza. "Any other questions?" I asked. "Nope. I'm gonna go lay down, call me if you need anything." she announced while standing up, pushing her chair in and walking upstairs. "Laurens." he looked at me. "Huh?" I abruptly kissed him, although it was full of passion and care, John smiled into the kiss and returned the affection while putting a hand on my chest. I slowly pulled back. "We did it... I love you." John giggled. "Yeah. I love you too."

BRIEF ELIZA P.O.V.

I knew it was true, i didn't want it to be  but I knew it. Our lives can't be normal ever again. To us at least, to the public this is perfect. We're just a happily married couple who doesn't show affection to one another.

I pulled out my phone and walked into our bedroom. sitting on the ground and leaning against the door. I flipped open google photos and skipped back to when we first started dating, I felt tears stream down my face, not out of anger nor sadness just frustration. I knew this, I knew about them but... I waited for it and this is where it got me... goddammit. I continued to flip through pictures, silent tears going down my face.

Why did I wait? Why didn't I approach him the first time I heard the two of them flirting on the phone? A kiss triggered all of this... it was only a kiss.... it was only a kiss.

I don't understand -- I mean, I do but it just doesn't make sense how a person could hide this kind of thing for probably years on end... we've been married for five years and not once have I even entertained the thought that he may be screwing around with another woman- hell, another man.

Am I not enough? What don't I have that John does? Is it just because he's gay and the world isn't ready for that? No... it's the 21st century, sure, he'd get hate but he'd get love for being who he is and for telling me.

I'm re-reading the messages he sent me... he told me about his legacy, what he wanted to do with his life, that he wanted me to be with him... I asked him what his future was and he told me... I was..

Why?

Why did I wait, why can't the two of us just be a normal couple? Why can't we just be together and have kids...

I've thought this through for a long time. I don't know why.

From the moment I read these texts I knew he was mine.... well he said so... and I thought so, I bought into it. I believed him. You and your words obsessed with this group of friends you'd made, the paranoia in every paragraph... god, how to read you...

You...

You...

You...

A/N: K I lied. It's only 12:23 AM though.