I Don't Like Your GF (Lams//Modern AU) ✖

~Nineteen~

I looked up and George, anxiety, fear and worry in my eyes. "Son, come in, we can handle your bags later, let's just get you in here." Washington put his hands on my shoulders, I stepped in hesitantly, he removed his hands. I crouched down starting to untie my shoes. "You don't have to do that in my house." I slowly stood back up and looked at Washington, tackling him into a hug.

"Thank You... dad..." I squeezed him slightly. George hesitantly wrapped his arms around me in return. "Y-you're welcome Alexander... don't sweat it. You're family." I smiled and just held him, I felt him rub circles in my back." I smiled wider. I let go of him stepping back and wiping my eyes. "I'm s-sorry. I didn't mean to get to emotional. Where am I sleeping?"

Minor time skip.

I stood the bathroom, already down to my boxers, preparing to shower. I stared in the mirror, licking my lips seeing how awful I looked. I've never hated my body but...shit, I'm in terrible shape. I sighed deeply, I turned around, looking at the wall instead, feeling my heart pound in my chest.

(OKAY I'M SORRY BUT I'M WATCHING DDLC HOLY FUCK SAYORI NOOOO WHAT THE FUCK)

I pulled my boxers off, stepping into the shower, blasting scoldingly hot water. I sat on the shower floor, knees against my chest and head to them. I cried. That's it. I just cried... I stepped away to take a shower and cried.

"Laurens I fucking miss you... you aren't dead but- i-im here... and I'm so lonely without you..." I tangled my fingers in my hair. "I'm so... I'm so lonely... I can't live without you..."

Day time skip.

I walked out of my office, expressing long and deep breaths. Today way so tedious without him... good god you only know how much you love a person when their gone... I've lost everyone, the only person i have left is Washington. Nobody else can help me now, unless Im ready to book a flight to britian.

I walked with my head down, suddenly feeling a hand on my shoulder causing me to turn around and look up seeing James Madison? I furrowed my brow in complete and utter confusion, Jefferson stood behind him. "Hey... uh we just wanted to see how you were doing, we're not close to you or John but uh... I'm sorry that we haven't been quite the best co-workers, but we wanted to let you know that if you need anything like lunch or like fifty bucks for anything don't be afraid to reach out."

Madison explained confidently. I nodded. "Yeah. It made me think about how much you really do for this system and... how important your job is." Jefferson stated while looking down obviously embarrassed. "And." Madison said egging Jefferson on. "I uh... I'm sorry for treating you like such shit over the past couple of years..." he mumbled.

I felt my jaw drop. "I- I suppose i owe the two of you something like an apology considering the fact that it's been mutual." I admitted while finally closing my mouth. James nodded and tapped Jefferson's shoulder before the two of them walked away. I stood still, frozen in time my brain trying to process what just happened. I felt a familiar hand on my shoulder, I already knew it was Washington but was ensured when he spoke. "Ready to go to the hospital, son?" I put my hand on his and nodded. "Yeah, I'm ready to go."

Time skip

I sat at John's bedside, yet again holding his hand. "Hey, it's me again baby... I told you I'd come back. The craziest shit happened to me, Jefferson and Madison apologized to me. I apologized in return... remember how you always used to say our conflicts were so dumb? I agree... looking back at them in heignsight they were really really stupid. I should listen to you more often. I've been looking forward to this, seeing you, since I woke up, it's the thing that got me out of bed this morning.