Deal with it

6 of November.

Yet again, the song has nothing to do with the theme of the chapter, but I felt it was oddly fitting, of the complete opposite, for the story (which hasn't been a thing for 24 h and I've already wrote smut of sorts. Wow Eko, wow. Everyone can tell you're a teen, can't they? BTW. If you can spot your mimic name, J, I'm sorry, I thought it up really quickly.)
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Hey. So. We went to school, Monday. Oh this was a crazy day. Like really really crazy. Let me just finally admit something first.

I have a crush on someone. And today, I came out to that person, with good results. I like Kenny McCormick, just like half of the school does. I felt that if I were to try anything, I'd have to come out first. But I'm getting ahead of myself.

Today I woke up before my parents and left for school a little early. More than a little early actually. But still. Kenny was there already, when I got there. Which surprised me, he is very vocal about hating English (which was our first class.) but he was there, reading English, as if he liked it. He was crying though and my first thought was to make a joke. So, I said "Is English really that bad?"

When he looked up, I saw a scar going across his cheek. There were more, he was flinching, I could tell. He tried to smile, well, successfully smiled... but I could tell it was fake. We started talking, he wasn't flirting with me. He leaned onto me and started crying, it was terrible. He said he got an accident. Apparently he would get rid of the scars soon enough but he looked as if his pride had been hurt. People think he is good looking (and I'm one of them) and he thought the scars were going to do something about. He is really obsessed with his looks, I don't think it's a good thing. We talked and talked and when people came, he put his hood up as to not show his face. While talking, gender came up and I told him. He shrugged and asked for my name. So, I gave it to him, Margarine. He, just like Kyle, asked to shorten it. However, he came up with a different version, Mae. Which I adore by the way. It's pretty cute and apparently it's the second part of a violin player's name. I mean, might mean something else as well, but I thought it was too adorable.

So, Stan and Kyle are apparently a thing now. Which is pretty cute. Wendy keeps nodding along to it. Everybody is so mad at her for leaving him and to be honest, I was too. It was uncalled for. But since Stan and Kyle getting together has left Wendy with a smirk on her face, I think she wanted this. She seems sad though. Like, she was looking at them for a long time before speaking up. Poor girl... actually, not really. She left Stan. I don't think she should be like that when he moves on. I don't even know. I'm very very confused. I'm rarely confused about, should I be mad at someone. I just normally am not. But Stan seemed so broken when he walked past us to go home. I don't want him to be sad, he is a really good friend. But so is Wendy. I'm very confused as to what I'm supposed to feel here.
Anyway, Stan and Kyle. Or Kyle more of. He has been so very kind to me and I really can't think of a way to thank him enough.

I went to Kati's office (Kathrine) again. She's so very kind! She talked to me for a while actually and gave me a free pass for not going to class. It was extremely kind of her, as if getting to talk to someone with the responsibility to stay silent and not gossip wasn't enough. She also showed me pictures of her dog! It's so cute! And told me stories. She's such an amazing person and actually feels like a friend, instead of a worker. I really love her for being so kind to me. She's inspiring me a lot because she doesn't cry about the past but stays in the future. As if it wasn't enough, she's not straight either. She told me about having an old friend that didn't feel like the gender they were born with either. Kati said she might set up a meeting, if I want to. Apparently the friend is a couple of years younger and kind of like Kenny. (In the sense that they are a huge pervert and a flirt.) I mean, Kati told this persons name to me. Apparently their name is Echo. Cool name.

She has an another friend, AJ, who is apparently really kind and cool and really awesome! I want to meet AJ as well! Kati has such cool friends. Although AJ and Kati seem much more interesting and cool and everything. Yeah. We were talking for a long time until Eric came in with a big bruise. According to him, Kyle hit him for 'No actual reason.' Even Kati saw through that bullshit but helped Eric anyway.

English class, I promised I'd come back to it. I have one sentence about English class,

WHAT DO ANIMALS MATING NOISES HAVE TO DO WITH ENGLISH?

I don't know, why it got played for over half of the class. Whale, wolf, cat, FUCKING BUNNY, fox, duck, we went though everything.

In biology, we had a reminder on consent. About 3/4 of the class eyed each other... meaning 3/4 of the class have had sex with each other.

When I got home, dad wasn't home. So I took two slices of bread and ran up the stairs. He has yet to come home. I should probably sleep, just so I don't get blamed for anything.

Until tomorrow:
Margarine/Mae