I'm not okay. Recently I've been feeling different and thinking differently. Not in a good way either. The thing is, I've been left alone lots of times and it's not good for me because the more I look in a mirror, the more flaws I see and then my self esteem drops. I've also been eating less. I either forget about some meals or just ignore them. Since my mom is barely home and the rest of my family doesn't care to have a proper meal, it's pretty easy to forget to eat. I think I've lost weight though.
Also, I feel like only bad things have been happening lately. Philip still hasn't said a word to me since school ended which just makes me feel like crap, my friends aren't responding to my texts when I need someone to talk to, and even you seem really busy. I miss the times when we would facetime for hours and just do whatever. Now, it seems like we never talk and it's like what happened with Maddie is happening with you too. Maddie and I promised to talk almost everyday before she had to move away and now we go several months before we even say hi to each other. I feel like I'm overreacting and being dramatic about it all but I just need a friend.
By the way, it turns out that my mom is going to be gone for my birthday. Which means I'll only have Matthew and Dad which may or may not change if they have to work. That sucks but I don't want my family to know that I care. If they know then they'll feel bad about not being there and I don't want them to feel bad. I'd rather have me just deal with it then have them feel bad. I'm just not okay right now.
