Secrets [sm]

three.

• wednesday, 6:30 pm.
august 2nd, 2017 | 08/02/17
[ victoria ]

a/n: lets just pretend the clothes are baggier & also mens clothing :))

i look at aria as a few tears slip out of her eyes and fall down her hurt filled face. my heart begins to race, the guilt starting to eat me up. she sits on my bed and i go over to her and wipe her tears.

"don't cry aria, i know you miss him but you can't be sad all the time. i know it hurts, but dont put your life on hold. c'mon let's get your mind off that dick." i give her a small smile. she looks at me sniffling, "what are we gonna do?" my smile widens and i grab her hand, taking her down to my kitchen. "we're gonna bake. and then watch movies, make ice cream sundaes. we can even call demi and kels."

she gives me a big smile and i see the excitement in her eyes. she grabs her phone, i assume to call the girls, and hurries off to the living room.

i let out a huge breathe, which i didnt realize i was holding, and walk to the bathroom. the first thing i do is take out my phone and sit on the toilet seat.

- from: tori.
idk what to do, every time i look at her i just feel guilty. she started crying

i know he can't really do anything about the guilt that i feel or aria crying, but the only person i can talk to about this is him. you know, since we're literally a secret.

- from: tori.
idk how long i can keep this up for i'm freaking out. we almost got caught up!

my breathing starts to pick up and my palms become sweaty. i know i put myself in this situation but shit, its hard. especially when aria is one of my close friends and not just some random acquaintance.

drew.
would like to facetime...
answer | decline.

- from: tori.
im in the bathroom with no headphones

- from: tori.
if i pick up she'll hear ur voice.

drew.
is calling...
answer | decline.

s: "hello?"
v: "yeah.."
s: "are you okay?"
v: "im about ready to have an anxiety attack. does that answer your question?"
s: "okay okay, no need for the sass. just relax v, we didn't get caught. there's no need to freak out."
v: "but we almost did! i have your clothes on for fucks sake! i dont know if she believes me or not, i told her i would never do that to her and she started crying sh- drew. what am i suppo-"
s: "victoria! enough. we almost did, but we didn't. don't feel guilty. we don't control our feelings. our actions? yes. but what we have is not wrong. everything is gonna be fine. just breathe okay?.. look i have to go, but please just try to relax okay? bye."
v: "okay.. bye."

as soon as we hang up the phone, aria starts to knock on the bathroom door. well i assumed it was aria until i heard the voice. "get out i have to pee!" demi yells.

"i'll be out in a second!" i check myself in the mirror to make sure i look normal and smoothen out my hair. once i unlock the door, it swings open. "thank god i thought i was gonna pee on myself," i get out of her way and start walking out, chuckling.

"nice clothes by the way" she teases. i roll my eyes at her in a playful matter and thank her. "thanks, they're drews so i'll be sure to tell him you like his style." a smirk takes over her face as she gives me a long "mhmm" and closes the door.

i dismiss her weird response and make my way to the living room to say hi to kels as i'm sure she's here also, since demi is.
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the rest of the night goes by great. my favorite part was baking the cookies. it was messy as fuck, but it was fun. we watched our favorite movies and a few shows, danced around the house singing along to the music we had blasting on the speakers.

now they're all asleep, leaving me awake by myself.

the time i had spent awake left me thinking about how this all started. me and shawn. memories of the day it all happened flood my mind and i can't help but laugh a little.

the memories continue to float around in my head until i doze off and fall asleep.
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here's chapter 3!
sorry if this is kind of boring, i guess its just a little filler until my ideas for the next chapter are complete. but i still hope you enjoyed it :).
until next timeeee,
- nelly 💞.