Goofy's Story

I thought I was over you...

Why? Why can't you just go? Get out, leave the home that you have created in my mind. It's like the more I try to forget you, the further the thought of you burries itself into my brain. Hell, I feel like I can't get away from you. You're everywhere, your name is in my phone constantly. Whether it's on Snapchat, Insta, or people asking me about what happened between us. And every time I have absolutely no idea what to say... "I'm not exactly sure, you see, he played with my feelings so I had to say goodbye even though it still hurts like hell when he's all I can think of and he's the reason I can't sleep at night". I have told myself millions of times that it's better to let go, to say goodbye and move on. But it sucks because I just can't, part of me still thinks that there is a chance even though I know there isn't. I know you never liked me, I know you didn't want to be my friend, you just felt guilty for being a jerk the time before so you worked your magic to win back my trust. And I was the stupid one for letting you. I should've told you to leave me alone that night and to never talk to me again because I got too attached. You got so much out of me, what the hell happened? You were one way with me, sweet, nice, caring, and then it's like a switch went off one day and you turned into a completely different person. Like damn, I seriously had deja vu. It was the feeling of trust being ripped away from me again. Because of you I can't trust people like I used to, it takes so long for me to open up to anyone anymore. You ruined so much for me, you're a terrible person. You don't deserve this, you don't deserve the tears, you never deserved me. I seriously can't let another tear seep into my pillow at night. Why you did it... again. Seriously, we talked about it why you did it the first time. But why again? What did I do so wrong that made you leave again. We could've been the greatest thing this world has ever seen, yes I thought of stuff like that because you were different. I just don't understand what you were thinking so I would appreciate it if you explained. I'm giving you one last chance to explain or the door is wide open waiting for you to leave. I know for a fact that you read what I said and you know how I feel so I need an explanation. That's the least you could do for me. Please.