Always but Never [one-shot story]

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Her side:

'Benedict Beau Harrison♥' 

The name I always write at the back of my notebooks when I'm bored. The name I always search first in the internet to be updated. The name I always answer if someone asks me if I have a boyfriend.

 Benedict Beau Harrison, the name of the man I love the most. He's the shiniest star in my universe. He's my inspiration, my source of happiness, and the center of my world. People call me crazy for being too in love with him. But is it my fault that I'm deeply in love with him? He got the looks, the good attitude, multiple talents, to cut it short, he's perfect for me. And it is not as if I'm the only one who's in love with him, we're thousand—millions who's into him. Yes, Beau is a famous guy from one of the hottest boy group in our generation. Many girls are in love with them–with him and I don't know if I should be happy with that fact. There's a lot of girls out there who are prettier, richer, and smarter than me who likes him too and I'm just me–the simplest girl in town.  

It's been years since I first watched their group's music video and it was like love at first sight when I saw him playing the guitar and singing with his honey-like voice. Since then, I dedicated my life fangirling over their group, please don't get it wrong, I'm not crazy. Haha!

I made him my inspiration, I always study hard so that my parents would allow me to go to their concerts. I also learned how to save money so I can buy albums and signed merch. Sometimes, I stay up too late just to watch their new released video and scream in front of my phone whenever the camera focuses on my Benedict Beau Harrison.

Yes, they literally invaded my world but it's okay. I'm not that delusional about Beau, I know my place, I know that I'm just his FAN and I will never be his girl. I'm just happy that I existed at the same time with him.

 My friends say that I'm just wasting my money for those boys who don't even know that I exist but I just shake my head and say 'They make me happy, they made my life exciting and memorable and I know I won't ever regret spending for them. Loving him will be a good memory that I can look back when I grow up.' 

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I got home later than I usually does that's why I'm quite tired. The moment I landed my foot in my room, I immediately opened my SNS accounts to check what's new about them--about Beau. I watched random videos of him or the other members that I saw on my newsfeed. I also saved a lot of pictures of him from other people's posts. Seeing previews about the group and Beau made my tiredness away, he's truly my energy pill. 

After finishing all my assignments and cleaning myself, I opened my laptop to have my daily dose of BBH. I opened the fancafé that's exclusive for the fans of Beau's group. There are thousands of fans registered in this fancafé.

In this fancafé, we can share photos, videos, gifs, and memes about our idols. We can also write messages for the boys in the message board, sadly, I don't think our idols know that this fancafé exist but at least, we can share our feelings here freely because no one would judge us. 

I shared a picture of Beau on my wall. Many people liked it and even commented on it.

'My happy pill♥'