Forgiveness (Book 1 of The Journal Entries)

IIII

"Oh come one Sarah you didn't have to!!"

I jumped up and down when she gave me a necklace with my birthstone. I finally turned 16. "You know I actually thought I would be dead by now... guess not." Sarah chuckles.

"God helped me out gave me the exact money I needed for that... isn't that amazing" I frown.

"I mean... I guess so... I don't really know who this God is to be honest." I reply.

"Oh honey God is our father and because he loves us so much he sent his son Jesus Christ to die for us. So that we could be in Heaven with him."

"But mom I don't understand! You're always saying that God is a good God but if he was so good why did allow my pitiful excuse of a father to rape me and a horrible mother to neglect me? I just don't understand?"

"Baby God never gives us more than we can handle. He knew that you were strong enough to withstand this storm. He loves you baby girl. You may not understand it now but you will... soon... and maybe you will meet someone who is going through the same thing you are and you will be able to help them..."

"Mom... I hate him..." I wince thinking she would yell at me.

"Maria... he still loves you..."

I look at her. She smiles at me and pulls me into a hug. This wont last long...

*1 Week Later*

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Sarah died... busting some gang... And since I'm not 18 guess where I went... yup... back to foster home. Isabel gave me a sad smile.

"I'm sorry for your loss. But guess what?"

"What?" Was my reply.

"I asked my boss and if it's okay with you... you can stay with me for the last two years... or you know forever?"

"Are you serious?" I screamed.

"I love Isabel she has been with me since day one."

"Of course I want to stay with you!"

She squeals. "Yay!"

She pulls me into a tight hug. The next week went by in a blur and the next thing I know I'm getting ready for school. I missed most of it because... well you already know. I walk through the halls holding onto my books tightly. This guy came up to me. He's a little taller than me and he has dark brown hair and gorgeous hazel eyes.

"Hey I haven't seen you around you must be new... I'm Kyle."

He extends his hand. "Oh goodness he is so cute." I smile and shake his hand.

"Maria."

He smiled. "Oh man he is gorgeous." I smiled back. He helped show me around turns out I have some classes with him. And guess what... he's a senior... I'm only a junior... Not that bad. But I'm gonna see if I can graduate this year... I've never really had a problem when I actually was in school. And now I have a problem... Prom is a week away... I don't know if I want to go. Not unless a certain hottie wants to ask me to it... I smile to myself. I meet up with Kyle.