Wonderland(Alice Cullen)

Goodbye/Dead Inside

     The next day, everything seemed different. Alice was quieter than usual, and Edward hardly even spoke to Bella. The worried feeling grew as the day wore on, and, after school, Alice took me to our favorite spot in the woods...She seemed tense, and I knew I was going to hate what she was about to say...She said,"We're going to leave Forks, my family and I..." I swallowed hard, as tears began to form..."You're leaving me?" She said, in a cold, unlike Alice voice,"I shouldn't have played with you for so long...I apologize if you thought this was more than a game..." Every word was like a knife in my heart, and I whispered,"But...You're my everything...Don't do this..." I thought I saw a slight flinch, but then it was gone...She told me,"It will be like I was never here...Like none of us were...As time goes on, I'll be like a dream..." She told me,"Goodbye...Don't do anything...Stupid...For Bella's sake..." She kissed the top of my head, then was gone...

    My insides grew colder and colder, with each second that passed, and I couldn't even call forth the ice that surely must now be my heart...I numbly walked through the forest, lost and alone, as it got darker and darker...Then, I leaned against a tree, and fell asleep...I woke to warm hands cradling me, and saw Bella next to me, being carried by similar hands...I felt like my body was an empty shell, but felt the too real pain...I was carried up to my room, and placed on my bed, then my door was shut behind the guy...I lie there, minutes or hours passing by, and I didn't care...Nothing mattered now...Nothing...

      *Trigger warning*
I went into the bathroom, and grabbed my razor, then carried it back to my room, and shut and locked the door. I broke it into pieces, then peeled the blades out...I rolled up my long sleeves, and carefully began slicing into my skin...I watched the red drip down, but still couldn't feel a thing...I threw the blades into a box, and shut it, then lie down on my bed, and slipped into a nightmare filled sleep...

A/N:Sorry guys...For the trigger thing...But you know, Bella went through severe depression in New Moon when Edward left, so this is her sister's own personal version of that...I apologize if this offends you in any way...