Voices

Chapter two

When we arrived at our new house in Miami,I went straight inside looking for the room I wanted to call mine.I found my room upstairs as far away from my dads.His room he picked was down stairs,because he wants to be as far away from me as I do.I picked this room because it has a bathroom and a nice closet for all my junk.I got my boxes and unpacked all of my stuff.I took out my drawings and hung them all over my room,I put my favorite one above my bed.Its a drawing of my family except my dads not in it,thats why its my favorite.The rest of my drawings are random or peices of nightmares I have.After I put them all over my room,I took off my sweats and changed into shorts,but I kept my sweatshirt on.I didn't want my dad or anyone to see my scars and recent cuts.

Shay,you ugly worthless piece of trash,go slice your wrists,your dad don't know anyways rite?Of course I'm right.Now go!

No, I don't need to right now. Leave me alone.The voices are back again haunting me.I don't know why I'm listening to them.Ugh. I walked to my bathroom and found my blades under the towles in the cabinet.I grabed the newest one and closed the door.I leaned my head on the door and slid down to my bottom,pulling my knees to my chest.I placed my arm on my knee in front of me and took the blade and sliced my skin.I watched the blood trickle down my arm slowly. I then sliced into my arm again rite above the last one.Then again once more.I stopped,before I cut for the fourth time today.I then started thinking of the three reasons why I cut myself today.One,I'm worthless,just like my dad says.Two,I have to start over again at a new school with new friends or friend and of course new enemies.Finally three,I'm stuck here with my abusive father...without my mom and sister.I dropped my head into my hands and started crying,mascara running down my face.I sat there crying and shaking on the floor.

When I stopped crying,I got up and looked at my phone.It was 10:00pm.I had missed dinner,but I didn't care.I changed into sweats and pulled down my sleeve.I sat on my bed and dialed my sister,katies number.After three rings she picked up the phone."Hey Katie long time no talk"I said."Hey Shay how have you been?Did you make it to Miami yet?I'm doing alright,just nervous for tomorrow and yes we made it to Miami.O good I'm glad and don't be nervous,everything will go great I promise."Thanks,how are you?"I'm doing fine,why?said katie.I'm just asking...katie are you lying?Are you okay?Don't lie to me please."Hey Shay I have to go I'm sorry I love you sis." No,wait...before I could finish she ended the call.Ugh,she's lying to me I know it.I will just have to call her tomorrow after school.I got up and turned off the light.I pulled the cover over me and drifted off to sleep with many thoughts lingering in my mind.