call me? • willne

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hey

hey

fuck i'm just gonna be straightforward about this. why did you break up with me?

oh. i was not expecting that

i'm sorry but i've been thinking about this since we broke up. and now we're finally talking again. i just wanna know what i did wrong

nothing. you did nothing wrong. god you couldn't do anything wrong.

then why did we break up? just tell me. break my heart again.

fuck don't say that.

why? it's the truth. my heart got broken that day by you and you left like it was nothing.

no it's not.

i broke up with you because you were too much. and not in a bad way. i could rely on you for anything. when my alarm didn't go off you were there to wake me up. when i forgot to call my mum you were already on the phone with her talking about how wonderful i was. when i couldn't get out of bed in the morning, you were there. you were there to tell me how much of an amazing person i was. you always assured me and dismissed all of my doubts about myself. but how could i be an amazing person when i couldn't take care of myself?

i-i'm sorry.

no you're not. you loved it. and god i did too. but then it became overwhelming. i couldn't do anything without you there. you remember when i went to paris with my friends for a week? that was a lie. i went by myself to see what i would be like without you. and god i was a mess. i didn't reply to texts. it took so much to get out of bed in the morning. i didn't eat for a day because you weren't there to remind me. eating slipped my mind. how does a basic human need slip someone's mind? i also fainted because i forgot to stay hydrated. i relied on you. i wasn't myself. i had let myself leech off of you. and you deserved better than that. i did too. i deserved a better me.

one s-second i'm sorry.

when coming back from paris, i looked at your videos more carefully. they were fantastic will. because i wasn't there for you to take care of. but i looked further. and when it was my bad days, there were sometimes no videos or really crappy rushed ones. and i know you hate those. but you loved me and your fans more.

ronnie-

but i decided i'd give it another try. i could take care of myself. but you just wouldn't stop will. it was slowly destroying us. i loved you too much to do that to you. so i knew i had to break up with you. and it killed me. it still does. but look at you now. you're growing so much.

you said you hated me ronnie.

because i knew it'd be easier if for you to move on if you thought i hated you.

god ronnie no. i could never hate you.

i need you to will. i can stay better if you hate me. i thought you did till you called. that scared me will. cause i was over you.

hating you won't help you get better. ronnie we can work this out.

not now. i have to go will.

ronnie.

what?

i still love you.

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i'm sorry ronnie.

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so if you didn't know who was who you know now?? i think it was kinda obvious who was who in the last but ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ (ahahahahaha im sorry i put that in but thats what fit in oof)

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