i felt myself being pulled out of the water
i gasped for air, coughing up water and clinging onto the arms of the person who pulled me away from my saving
i looked up and saw your eyes, wide in fear, your face pale and tears falling down your cheeks
'what the hell are you doing?' you sobbed and grabbed onto me tightly as i just fell limp in your arms
i didn't want to cry, i didn't want to feel
i wanted to die
i wanted it so badly
and i wanted to scream at you for saving me
i wanted to scream at you for ever loving me, for ever speaking to me, i wanted to scream and kick and shout at the top of my lungs for you to get away from me
i wanted you away from me
because all i did was break you even more
but i couldnt get you away
because before i could
everything went black
cause little you knew, i knew you'd be there to save me
so i emptied my pill container before i got in the tub
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𝙟𝙤𝙪𝙧𝙣𝙖𝙡 [ completed ]
Fanfictiona journey trough a girls journal, filled with little poems and thoughts about a boy that joined her group for people with depression