its been a while since i wrote in here
i had to visit a therapist weekly
and slowly i was beginning to feel fine again
i was in a coma for a month, my dad told me
i scared him
and you
and i scared myself to
all i know is i never want to do it again
i didn't want to be scared anymore
most of my first two months out of the hospital i was on a lot of pills
i didn't like the pills because they made me not feel
i didn't like the pills because they made me forget about loving you
i couldn't
i wanted to but i couldn't
i spent days in my bed, and you were next to me
and i couldn't even look at you
i'd fade in and out of reality and i didn't know if you grabbing my hand and squeezing it was just a dream or if it was real
but the doctors finally said i didn't have to take them anymore
i finally felt like i was on the right path again
i finally felt again
every touch, every kiss with you was real
i even told you i loved you
i could finally tell you that
i could be happy with you
and i didn't feel scared
at all
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Fanfictiona journey trough a girls journal, filled with little poems and thoughts about a boy that joined her group for people with depression