Confessions Are For Fresh Starts [Destiel - AU]

6 - The One where Cas moves out

"You did what?" was all Charlie could ask after Dean told her the whole incident from the night. He just caught her up before she went into her apartment, almost dragging her into his and just could make her stay because he made pancakes and bacon. Closely after, Jo and Meg came along noticing that Charlie isn't home and checking in at Dean's, so he hadn't no other option than telling them all together.

Meg just swallowed her bit of bacon when she pointed with her fried meat at Dean "Obviously our Dean here kissed his best friend who happens to be in a happy relationship with another guy and caused something to make the relationship not happy anymore." she said. Dean rolled his eyes dramatically "I didn't do that on purpose!" "We know," Jo said, leaning her hand on his shoulder "it was the heat of the moment. That can happen to all of us." Dean smiled at her with a relieved sigh, leaning in to give her a kiss on her temple. Jo smiled happily that she cheered him up a bit. Charlie shook her head "No, that can't happen to all of us. Heat or not, Dean. You can't just forget that Cas has a boyfriend. This doesn't work, okay? You made him a cheater because he kissed back. What did you think? You know how Cas is, he will feel miserable now." Dean opened his mouth but wasn't able to answer, Jo did "Come on, Charlie. We can't be so hard on him" "You can take care of his feelings, but he is not our cousin, so we don't have to be on his side." Meg pointed out and the red haired woman nodded approvingly. "Dean, dear, what you did was wrong. You mixed Cas' feelings and now he will be so confused. And you just say that it wasn't on purpose? Like it didn't mean anything?" Meg pointed out and nibbled on her bacon.

"Oh, come on Meg. At least he might have kissed him for real feelings and not to make someone jealous." Jo mumbled and the moment she realized what she said, she shut her mouth with her hand and looked at the girls apologetic. "What?" Dean asked the group, while they were exchanging looks. For a moment Dean got angry, since he understood the sentence that Meg used Cas to make someone jealous, until Charlie was reading his mimic and came to clear it "Meg was Cas' fake-girlfriend to make a guy he liked jealous." Dean's posture relaxed and he sighed relieved. He went with his hand through his hair before he looked at Meg questioning. Meg leaned back in her seat, throwing a glare at Jo and rolled her eyes as the blonde girl clapped her hands together and begged for forgiveness, mouthing 'I'm sorry' over and over again.

"So," Meg started "Clarence and I were friends since Freshman year and it kinda happened that he told me that he was in love with that guy-" "what guy?" Dean asked but Meg shrugged "None of your business." Dean pouted and nodded, letting her carry on (my wayward son) "so in his senior year he couldn't think of anything else but the desire to find out if that guy likes him too. So he came with the idea to have a girlfriend, but since he didn't want to hurt anyone he asked me to play the role, you know, 'cause I know about his sexuality bla bla bla" Dean nodded, watching her rolling her eyes. Meg changed her position into one more comfortable and continued "So we dated, kissed in front of him and we were extremly going far with how we talked, maybe you remember how we said we want to marry, have kids etcetera. It went for month until we gave up, I mean that dumbass actually was so supportive, Cas cried himself to sleep. He gave him ideas for baby names, made plans for his bachelor party and stuff." Meg said angrily, frowning at Dean who nodded angrily too at the idiot who made his best friend feel this way. Not really knowing who it was.

"So we "broke up" and carried on being best friends. For the others not understandable how we still be friends, but well, it wasn't anyone's business, right?" she explained and Jo and Charlie nodded along. Dean looked at them questioning "how did you guys found out?" Charlie shrugged "I am gay. We have that sense to find each other. Even if he was older, I kinda knew and when I asked Meg I she told me not to go to him, since he isn't really sure about it" the read haired woman said, drinking her orange juice. Jo smiled at Dean lazily "I found out really early. In middle school I knew that he liked that boy." "Wait, he was in our middle school?" Dean asked confused and all three of them looked at him frowning. "Wow." Meg said, "I was never so ashamed to be your best friend." Charlie commented and Jo nodded "I'll second both of that." Dean looked confused at the three women, who looked down and paid now attention to the breakfast, leaving Dean in his confused state.

Later that day, when everyone went back into their apartments, Dean took all his brave and went over at Cas and Charlie's apartment. He saw Charlie sitting on the couch with a book in her hand, looking really concentrated "Hey, redhead you're alone?" "No, Cas is in his room. Didn't came out since I'm here." she said, not looking up from her book. Dean nodded and walked over to Cas' room, knocking on the door "Hey, buddy. Uh, can we talk?" Nothing. "Please, Cas. We need to talk about what happened last night" again, nothing. Dean tried his luck and tried to move the door knob and opened it, to his surprise it wasn't locked. He stepped inside the room and almost lost his balance, when the door wasn't there. Worried of Dean's reaction, Charlie put the book away and walked over to Dean. She looked inside and saw nothing. Everything was gone. The bed was empty from sheets and the desk free from all the books Cas owned. She walked over to the the closet and that too was empty. Charlie looked around the room, not believing what was happening, when she saw a note on the bed. Dean saw it too and walked over, sitting on the naked bed and opening the letter

Hey guys,
I know this is abruptly for you all, but I have the feeling that it needs to be done. A few days ago Mick asked me to move in with him, I know we are just dating for a few month, but until now I didn't even thought to be in a happy relationship and so I decided to go for it. I know Dean told you about the kiss and so did I told Mick. He wasn't really mad at me, what I couldn't understand because I couldn't forgive something like that, but he said he is happy that I didn't hid it from him and that I chose him. It was odd, because this was the moment I knew how much I mean to him. He looked through me and knew what he was saying, yes I did chose him and I chose to live with him. I mean a lot to him and he is showing me that everyday. This is what I needed the whole time, and it doesn't even bother me that it is not the person I wanted this all from. But you can make yourself love someone, right? His love is enough for both of us, right? I am sorry that I couldn't tell you that all in person, but I will come by and explain everything to you.
I love you, I love all of you.

Castiel.

Dean and Charlie couldn't believe it. Both of them jumped up, pulling out their phones to call Cas. Dean tried his work-phone and Charlie his private number, both of the numbers went directly into the mailbox.

The sandy haired man walked through the room, gasping for breath and not knowing why he was freaking out "No, no, no, no, no, no. Why did he do that, is it my fault is-" Charlie slapped him, causing Dean to shut up and stare into space "This is not the time for self-pity. Dean, Cas is doing something he doesn't want to. He thinks it's right but haven't you read it? He doesn't believe in all of this. You need to talk to him tomorrow. Find him at work and tell him he doesn't have to. Find out what you're feeling and tell him all of this!" Charlie said slowly and calming. Dean nodded, turning his head to look down at her, his eyes filling with tears "Charlie," he sobbed "I think, I am in love with him-" he cried out and got pulled into a hug from his best friend. She rubbed over his back comforting, smiling slightly and whispering "Oh, honey. I know and finally you do too" she said, rocking him to calm him down.