Romantically Hopeless

Chpt. 9 ~ I Lost Her.

WARNING: The following chapter may be a touchy subject for certain readers. So, please read with caution.

Amber's P.O.V. ~ 

 "We have to go to the hospital," I say stumbling around while Jake sits around on his ass staring at me. 

"NOW," I yelled. 

    Jake and I run and hop into the car as fast as possible. I tell him to step on it. I try so hard not to think of a worse case scenario. I try so hard not to cry but, it's hard to handle so news like that. I felt like my world was crashing down. It felt like it wasn't happening but, at the same time, it felt all too real. My thoughts were stopped when I realized I had tears pouring down my cheeks. 

  I never felt real pain until this moment. I don't know if she will be okay. 

"She will be fine. She is a strong woman." Jake said like he was reading my mind. 

I just sat there and sobbed all the way to the hospital. I was hoping maybe letting it out would make time go faster but, it didn't. 

We finally arrived, Jake dropped me off at the front door as I was running in he said he will be in shortly. I put it to the back of my mind, making sure she was okay was what is important.

"Chelsea Jacobs, please," I said with tears still running down my face. 

"One second." The nurse said unamused 

"Hurry, I don't have time for this. She is dying! Do you not fucking care?" I yelled as I slammed on the desk. That's when I felt a hand on my back. I turn around it was Jake. He was comforting. 

"I assure you, ma'am, I care." She said scared 

"Well, hurry up and fucking locate her," I yelled again

"Shhh." Jake cooed in my ear as he rubbed my back, calming me down a little back. 

"Room 208. Is where she will be after her surgery." She said handing me her papers.

"Thank you," I said grabbing the papers from her. 

 Jake and I sit on her future hospital bed. I bounce my leg up and down. I do that when I'm nervous, scared, angry, etc. I lean my head on Jake's shoulder and he pulls me closer. I have no idea what I am going to do. What happens if I do lose my mom?

"Jake, I'm scared," I said shaking as tears started to pour again. 

  He nodded and started to hold me with both of his arms. What he was doing, being here, it meant a lot. When I need him most, he is here I couldn't be more grateful. I would probably be more of a mess than I am now if he wasn't here. I get up and start pacing back and forth the room. Jake watches me and lets me do my thing.  

I hear a knock and the door start to open to the hospital room. I stop and pop my head up.

"Hi, good afternoon." The doctor says. I roll my eyes. Yeah, one hell of an afternoon. Jake gets up to shake his hand I do as well. 

"I am your mother's doctor. My name is Dr. Andrews." He pauses 

"Unfortunately, your mother is in critical condition. My nurses are prepping for another surgery. If and when she recovers it is going to be a rough recovery." He said with disappointment in his voice. 

"She is also losing a lot of blood. We are running out of her blood type." He added. 

"I have her blood type!" I basically tackle him. "Take mine." 

"Yes, if you wish. I will send a nurse in." He said as he exited the room. 

  A nurse came in right after him. She seemed in a rush. Which is a bad sign. My mom is struggling, she is fighting for her life literally. The nurse stuck me wrong twice that's how much she was in a hurry but, it was worth it. It was always worth it. She will always be worth it. 

  Another hour passed, I heard another knock on the door and saw it start to open. This time, it swung all the way open. I saw an edge of a bed. My heart dropped. It was my mom. She was okay. I started to sob and almost collapsed but, Jake caught me.

  She really was in a bad condition. Her face, arms, and legs were bruised. She had a black eye and an enormous bump on her head. My mom had a broken arm and leg. I couldn't stand it. I couldn't stand seeing her in pain. It hurt me physically. 

I would change places in a heartbeat. 

I told Jake to go home. He refused. I told him to at least take a walk. I wanted some time with my mom. He respected that, so he went for a 'walk'.

My mom was in a coma. It would be a while before she would wake. The doctor said we were talking weeks. 

"I love you. If I could I would change spots with you, I would." I started to cry 

"Mom, I can't lose you," I begged. I just sat there, holding her hand telling her it was going to be okay. But, in all honesty, I didn't know for sure myself if she would be. 

The monitor started to go off, I started to panic, her heart rate was picking up. Too fast. Too quick. 

"NURSE!!" I shout crying at the same time. I saw Jake turn the corner but, I ran back into the room

She ran for the doctor and they all shoved me out of the room. There were at six of them. 

*30 minutes later*

30 minutes passed but, it feels like it has been 5 hours. I finally hear the door open, the doctor walks not too happy. I can tell. I know the look. 

"I am so sorry miss. Your mother has passed." He said softly 

I push them all out of the room. I wanted to be there, I want her to know that I was there. That I was there until the very end. I couldn't help but, scream. 

My world has crumbled. 

"I am so sorry, Amber," Jake said softly 

"GET OUT. LEAVE." I shouted. He left. 

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sorry.

~KelseyWritings