Escape (A Luke Brooks/Janoskians fanfic)

Chapter 4

INTENSE CHAPTER ALERT. okay this chapter took a lot of digging deep and emotional writing since it has a personal meaning to me. I'm trying to make these chapters longer so here you go. Enjoy loves.

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"Shit. Shit. SHIT." Beau scream as he slammed on the gas and took off. What the hell just happened!? I was sobbing uncontrollably and Luke pulled me into a hug, "Shush.. Alex, calm down, it'll be okay, I promise." I sniffed, wiped my tears, and nodded. Of course I was shaken up, but considering how fast Beau reacted, I knew these boys had my back. But it was hard to believe it will be okay, I mean my own brother just tracked my down and tried to kill me and my friends!

"Beau, thank you. Please take me home?" "You sure you don't want to co-" "Take me home, now." His face dropped but he nodded. As soon as we pulled in front of the house I was jumping out. "I'm going to Beau's!" James yelled at me. I just trugged into the house and straight into my room. I needed to get rip of the pain, somehow. I grabbed my ipod and put it on my dock, blasting depressing music. I went into the kitchen and pulled out the silverware droor so hard it came out and slammed onto the floor. Spoons, forks, and the best yet, knives spilled everywhere. I grabbed the one with nice sharp blades.

I sat on the floor and sobbed as I held the knife against my wrist. "You're better than this!" I screamed at myself, but I was only lying. I drove the blades across my skin, cutting deep letting some blood drip on the floor. "Shit." I muttered as I pushed myself up.

I grabbed the nearest towel and tied it around my wrist. I held tight on to the knife and went into my room. I threw most of my clothes into a bag and made sure I had put the knife in there too. I just needed to get away, just for a little.

Before leaving I wrote a letter to James and the boys:

Boys,

I'm sorry I put you guys through this, I've barely been here a week, and I've already put you in a life threatening situation. I already love you guys and I just want to thank you for taking me in and taking care of me. But I need to go. I have to get away from all of this, I'm not quite sure how long it will be. Just enough time to let me get my mind in the right place. I don't know where I am going so don't come look for me, please. You just have to let me be. I'm kinda like a butterfly I guess, don't laugh I know it's dumb, because I'm a free spirit that needs to be left alone. I'm fragile and easily broken, I don't exactly know what I'm doing, but you just have to have a little faith that I'll be able to fly on my own. Okay I make zero sense but in all, I will be back at some point. Once again thank you and I love you all.

Sincerely,

Alexandra Ball

P.S. James I am so sorry about cutting again..

I was crying by the end of the letter, yes I was upset to leave, but they were also happy tears. These boys were already my whole life.

I set the letter on my bed and grabbed my bag. I walked out the front door and turned around, taking one last look at home. If I could even call it that. I'm not sure where "home" is. "Goodbye Janoskians." and with that I left.

James POV:

"I'm gonna head out boys, I should probably see how Al is doing," I said as I stood up. It was almost midnight and I was worried. My mom is constantly gone so I had no hope in her being home to comfort Alex. "Bye James." they all said in unison. "Hey, text me how Alex is doing, would ya?" Luke asked. "'Course, I'll text all of you. Bye."

I walked down the street towards my house. It was cold, but the breeze felt good, it helped clear my mind. I had hope in Alexandra, I knew she was strong. No doubt she's sitting in her room right now blasting Stand Up by One Direction and dancing while she hangs up more and more posters like she said she wanted to. I smiled at the thought of my cousin being genuinely happy. I missed being little and being carefree like we always were. Alex was the happiest person I knew when I was younger. Even in middle school she never had drama. But when her mom passed she changed. Her dick of a father changed her.