I SAW THE UNIVERSE

The Dark Ages

At the time of big bang there was period of bright inflation of matter and formation of anti-matter, just after that bright period the universe suddenly went into darkness again and the theorists called it Dark Ages of the big bang expansion and in my life the dark ages had just started. It was the month of March when everyone was promoted in second standard but my result was kept withheld, due to my inefficiency of being equally responsive like other kids the school conducted a IQ exam specially for me and my IQ according to test was 72 and the report said "borderline mental disability and case of dyslexia." At that time in India people considered mental disabilities as a taboo actually somethings never change but never-mind, so now i was one of the lot and my parents could not accept this fact, the vice- principal said they they would keep me under observation for sometime and if there is no change in the condition they will have to rusticate me. After a few years when i understood my condition i realized that my vice principal was the dumbest person on the planet as he thought a mental disability and illness was similar that would be change after keeping in observation. 

We left and in our way back my parents said nothing, when we reached home i heard my father saying to my mother "this is all because of you and you have made him like this." , she said nothing and started crying, she was sad and i asked Aditya, "what have you done, why there is so much water coming out of her eyes", he said " she is crying as my marks were low in the exam" and i believed him. I was hungry so i went to my mother and asked for food she hugged me and said 10 minutes son just wait and suddenly my father pulled me back and slapped me hard on my face and then grabbed my hand and took me to my room, while he dragged me i felt like everything had slowed down my eyes went wide and pupils dilated but suddenly everything came back to normal with a loud thud of the gate being closed. My father was very angry and with the same emotion of anger he asked me "whats your problem?" i didn't understand him and he repeated himself and this time louder than before and he slapped me again and once again everything slowed down his voice seemed to fade and i could just see his face and his cheeks moving as he shouted, then i saw a fly and i felt like i saw it moving frame by frame, its every wing flap and it motion in the air and then i suddenly fainted. 

I woke up next day in a hospital and saw my father sitting next to me, his eyes were swelled up and i have never seen him like that before. The doctors said i fainted due to some kind of stroke but years the real reason was discovered by a team of neurologists. I was discharged later that day but when we reached home our neighbors looked at me like i was an alien to them, people who found me cute now didn't even look at me and Adiya lost his friends. The news of i being a low IQ and a dyslexic had spread and now no one wanted their kids to play with me, people just came to our house with different solutions like eating almonds and going to temples.

My mother was a religious woman and she belived in astrology so she used to take me to an astrologer who told her that i would be a lifetime burden but that could be ignored if a ritual was performed and my mother did the same, nothing happened and nothing changed. I was forced to study for hours so i started hating my books and one night i felt acute pain in my head i couldnt control it i ran across the room screaming out sentences from the book and i felt like the end of the world, my eyes turned red and my face turned pale. My parents got scared and the very next day i was taken to the psychiatrist and he told them that it was caused due to some stress and i was just a 10 years old boy who could not work like other people did. Some medicines were prescribed to me for future attacks like these.

I was afraid and then two bizzare things happened in my life, my mother's sister had a baby and we went there but i wasnt allowed to touch the baby, mental disabilities are not contagious but they didnt knew that but this was not the thing, a week later the baby died and their family preist blamed it on me and said it was my presence at the birth place which killed the new soul and they belived it! Roumers spread that i was a jinx and what followed was my rustication from the school. For my parents things were like falling apart and the reason was me but i never did anything, i was just a weak 10 years old lad. Years later the reason behind the baby's death was discoved but till then every last person in my family belived that i had killed that baby. Soon i was not allowed to go out as people were afraid of me and it was the first time i felt resentment towards everyone and i screamed "i didnt touch the baby" i was crying and wanted to play with the children in the park and i wanted to eat candies.

If you think that this was the upper limit of my pain then you keep your eyes open and be attentive the dark ages have just begun.