Suicide

Those Three Empty Words

Tears drop down my face as I'm stuck victimizing myself over her as her laughter haunts me I hear her voice in my head as I scream STOP IT ACE JUST STOP IT!!! As Chris looks over at me like I'm insane as the tears flow from my face knowing that he did not know that she was stuck in my head laughing as the tears got worse and worse I could feel the pain rush up as it was so bad I screamed out STOP ACE STOP IT HURTS SO MUCH!!! As my tears slowly come down my cheek Chris looks as a tear falls from my cheek as I was sitting where me and Ace used to sit together but she was not there still that place was still my favourite place because she used to always sit there she was always my favourite on the bus as I screamed ACE DON'T YOU KNOW HOW MUCH I CARE FOR YOU!!! Crying at the top of my lungs when it felt like I was having trouble breathing as the pain rushed up to its limit it past it as I could feel it stab me as I screamed out in front of my crush I had no control of myself the pain was so damn strong I screamed super loud JUST LET ME DIE I DON'T DESERVE TO LIVE ANYMORE!!! As Chris was shocked the tears got faster as I started screaming her name so loud it hurt like I was getting shot in the heart and stabbed then was giving birth at the same time the pain was so agonizing as I felt the pain hurts to make me lose control I screamed I NEED TO DIE NOW PLEASE I CAN'T ACE!!! Chris jumped up off his seat when the bus stopped as I cried like crazy as I felt Chris's hair on my skin my heart was being ripped up from the inside as I felt my body start to get more painful and agonizing I screamed more ACE I CAN'T BELIEVE YOU LEFT ME IM SO SORRY I NEED YOU BACK!!! Chris looked at me with opened eyes as the tears rushed down I was crying just like my old friend Ace when she told her story and had the pain run up her I could feel it from her from that day scared to help or even ask.