Suicide

Leave!

I put on Another Now as I cried deep my belly sinking in as I turned myself around like Ace did and cried tucking my legs in as my head was buried as I had a quick look out the window shouting out ACE YOU LEFT ME ALONE HOW COULD YOU I THOUGHT WE WERE AMAZING HOW THE FUCK COULD YOU DO THIS TO ME!!! As I put my head on the window as I looked up seeing a bridge I yelled STOP ME HERE I DON'T WANT TO GO TO SCHOOL!!! As Chris looked up seeing what I was looking at a bridge it was super high up perfect to jump off of I turned myself back and got ready to get off as the tears flowed I stepped over Chris's legs without even realizing and walked out the bus saying it's time I leave this world I don't belong here not without her as I was walking away to the bridge Chris yelled LET ME OFF TO SHE'S HEADING FOR THE BRIDGE TO JUMP OFF OF I HAVE TO STOP HER!!! As I put my bag down grabbing my iPod saying to Ace's picture goodbye my old friend I'm not not worth living without you so what's the use I put my IPod in my bag but before that I kissed her photo and put it in I said I love you Ace I always have you meant so much now it's gone it's time for me to let go and leave you alone and leave my heart here with yours I have to die for this goodbye my friend or should I say sister stepping on the edge of the bridge the bus driver sees me getting on the bridge as Chris yells at the top of his lungs SHE IS KILLING HERSELF BECAUSE SHE LOST THE FRIEND SHE LOVED THE MOST I CAN'T LET IT HAPPEN LET ME STOP HER!!! As the bus driver said Go! Chris ran out trying to catch up to me before I could jump off I whispered if only you knew how much I cared for you if only you could see this as I was about to jump off I heard Chris I yelled LEAVE ME ALONE CHRIS I DESERVE THIS I DESERVE TO DIE SHE'S GONE AND SHE IS NOT COMING BACK TO ME EVER LET ME JUST DIE!!!