The mirror fogs
With steamy air
A shower where I wash
My body and hold back tears
The fog begins to disappear
My body
Cold
Wet
I look myself
Begin to hate
Choke back tears
I come to the sink
Open my mouth
Notice my teeth
Stained yellow
With carbonated drink
That kept me up
Helped me think
Which made panic
I wish they would have
Been stained with
Chemicals from clouds
That I blow from my lips
Maybe then I could stop
Stop
Crying
Shaking
Aching
Instead I take my pills
That slither down my thirst
Like a drink
Expect without that clouded mind
I just see clearer lies
I lay down
I toss
I turn
No sleep tonight
