Can't Raise A Man

Dani..

Ughh ..I cannot believe im having you. That was mad fast " i say to my baby bump looking at my stomach. Tony and I hasnt been on the same page but hay , im having his baby. He's excited , i am too. But where is the love around all of this, like let me hit my chill button for a minute...actually nahh im not gonna hit my chill button ..let me just rewind for a second. Today marks the day i am 7 months pregnant with a baby girl by Tony. Okay now i can forward back. Like i was saying earlier . There is no love here. I don't feel it. When i first fell in love with tony. I thought he would b different . He was , i mean my past relationships i ended up hurt. But it was just something about him that made me put up with his shit for a while, we just got back together nd now been doing this for six months now 😩. It gotten so dam bad to the point where we fake our relationship in front of our family. His mom always says aww ya is the perfect couple. I just smile it off. Because i know that shit right there is not true at all. Dam !

I mean, he is never home. And when we argue he walks out and leave . I don't see him til probably two days later. Whats love if it has nothing to do with love. I hope my baby do get the same love i had temporarily , but i want her love to be life long lasting with her father. No matter what we are going through.