Autumn outside the post office

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"We are great,  don't worry eomma." he whispered through the phone,  the lump that formed in his throat made it hard for his voice not to crack,  tears already formed in the corner of his eyes. He wished he could believe the lies he was telling, He wished they were great...but they weren't.

It hurts. Everything hurt yet he still fight for him,  even when the latter turned his back for him and threw him to the pit of fire,  he still want him.

"Are you sure Jinnie?"
"Y-yes."

A sound of a door clicking was heard,  five seconds and his husband was making his way inside the mansion,  holding a brief case,  a look of displeasure on his face. Jin gulped slightly then returned to the phone.

"Eomma,  I'll call you later...take care."

"kookie you're back."
No reply.
"I'll go prepare a bath for you and-"

"Jungkookssi honey, where do I put my heels? " a third voice was added,  and Jin found himself looking at a  woman who simply hugged "his" husband's arm.
She didn't seem surprised at all.
Jin looked at Jumgkook in disbelief the other just ignored him and went with her upstairs.

"Not again." Jin thought on the verge of crying,  his doe eyes watching them as they walked away.

The male dropped his weight on his bed, once again thinking what went wrong?  he's not good enough?

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"So you're telling me that you never had sex before? And you're married?"

Seokjin nodded while holding the caramel cappuccino between his numb fingers,  his mind still playing the scene he saw earlier.

Ken wanted to rant about it and scold Jin for accepting to be in such a degrading relationship but the boy was on the verge of fainting.

He simply sat next to him and wrapped his arms around him tightly while rubbing his back.

"Shhh Jinnie,  I am here for you."
"Don't tell anyone Ken."
"I won't so just relax now...and return the hug before I feel completely embarrassed you hoe!"
Jin chuckled weakly while hugging back.

The fact that he never had anything intimate with Jungkook not even a kiss after they got married was something he never told anyone about it not even his mother. He ended up telling Ken cause Ken is his childhood friend and he is the  only ome who didn't try to judge Seokjin,  he only gave him comfort and emotional support.

"Jinah...please don't consider me like the other..but I think you should leave Jungkook..just.. Please..I can't see you this broken."
"I wish I can..."  he sighed while shaking the mug,  unable to continue his drink.
"But I don't want to." Jin finished not daring to look His best friend in the eye,  knowing very well what kind of shocked expression he'd see.
But Ken only rubbed his palm and repeated that he's there for him.

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The male looked at the picture on his phone for more than an hour,  constantly zooming in and out,  marveling on every single details,  especially the lips.
The thick full pink lips that always looked glossy and tempting.
He scrolled to the second picture and the third.... And the sixtieth...all of them were pictures of the same beautiful man in many different angles.
"Seokjin,  I fuckin want you to be mine."

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It was midnight already. Jin wasn't able to sleep no matter how hard he tried,  he kept tossing and turning in his spot.

He got up to get a glass of water from the kitchen or a small snack maybe it'll help him.  He walked pass Jungkook's room..empty.

After preparing two cups of coffee,
He went to his small office to check on his husband,  half of his heart prepared to he shattered once again at the thought that Jungkook might be out.
However he found him emerged in company work and papers.

Jin entered while biting his lower lip,  praying God he won't get yelled at,  placed the cup in front of Jungkook and turned his back to leave.

However he laid down the leather couch facing Jungkook who still working and didn't react or say anything yet.

Slowly Seokjin drifted to sleep while watching Jungkook working but just second before completely drowning in his dreams he saw Jungkook looking at him.

The man walked toward the sleepy male and stroke his hair a few times then pressed his lips against his.

"Sorry baby."

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