Loving Jace Wayland

Michaela

I wake up with Jace next to me, he was already awake playing with my hair. I look up at him, he smiles at me.

"God I love you...not because of what just happened, but because you're just an amazing person," He smiles,

"And then the fact you gave me the honour to be your first!" he exclaims.

"How do you know you were my first?" I smirk.

"I've known you since we were...gosh..12!" He laughs.

"how come I was never your parabatai?" I ask.

"Because I was in love with you, and you can't fall in love with your parabatai...so I never let you be mine." He says.

I get up.

"Where are you going?" He whines.

"I'm going to apologise to Alec." I say.

"that's what you think about after we've just had sex?" he smirks,

"No, you brought up Parabatai soooo..." I trail off,

"Alright have fun." he smirks. "Where's my underwear?" I smile.

"I think they're underneath me." he says. He reaches underneath himself and pulls them out, "Thank you," I smile. I put my clothes on and head out the door, before I leave and turn around, "I love you." I say, "I love you too." he answers back. I smile and leave.

I take twists and turns 'till I finally get to Alec's room. I open the door. I scream and fall to my knees. I crawl to Alec's bloody corpse, I pick his head up and set it in my lap. I sob, looking at his slit throat, "No...no..no! No! No! No!" I sob staring at him, "I'm sorry...so, so, sorry!" I sob. "Alec?" I hear Jace whisper, I look up, "It's my fault! I'm sorry...it's my fault..my fault!" I cry. I hear a gasp, I look up again and see Isabelle, she breaks down in tears. Jace takes her in his arms, I hear her sob in his shoulder. Isabelle runs to Alec, "Alec? wake up!" she cries, "Please! I need you Alec wake up...we were supposed to die together..remember?" she cries, holding him.

I look at all the blood on my hands and pants, I run to the bathroom. I stick my head in the toilet and throw up, I feel Jace come in behind me and pull my hair back, "Jace! Go to him! He is your best friend! Don't think about me think of Him!" I yell, I throw up some more.

When I'm finally done, I stand up and wash my hands. I walk out and almost burst into tears again, I see Jace holding Alec in his arms, crying...Jace is actually crying. "Alec...why? I need you...I need you Alec, I love you, please wake up!" he cries. "I'm such a bitch," I accidentally blurt out, Jace looks at me and shakes his head.

"Michaela...don't say that," he sniffles.

"It's my fault...If it weren't for m-"

"If it weren't for you, Alec would already have been dead, if it weren't for you I'd be dead or miserable, if it weren't for you Isabelle would be dead too!" He exclaims.

"My parents are coming." Isabelle coughs.

"I'm sorry," I say to Isabelle.

I go over and hug her, she hugs be back tighter.