P H A N 🔥 S M U T

It Hurts

This one is a bit different,and a bit longer.

Trigger Warning: Mentions of depression, blood, and bullying.

Phil's POV
I walked over to my locker grabbing my books for my first class. Someone slams my locker shut, startling me. I turn to see the one and only Dan Howell, with that fucking smirk on his face. I'm madly in love with him amd i hate it, he would never love me back because all he does is taunt and torment me. How can someone with such a beautiful face have such and ugly heart. "Hey loser. I've missed you over the weekend," he says with a sarcastic tone in his voice," Me too, you were all that was on my mind," i reply back, mocking his tone and rolled my eyes. I was about to leave but Dan stopped me in my tracks. "I've missed you so much i want you to meet me in the assembly hall on the bottom of the school during free hour, you know the abandoned one.

I looked at him confused, why would he want that,"What if i don't go," "Trust me if you dont, you'll regret it," he says then leaves me. Holy fuck.

Hours passed then it was finally time to see dan. I walked to the assembly hall and waited for Dan anxiously. What could he possibly want. He is probably going to beat me up again, and if he does no one will here me scream. I was considering leaving until Dan entered the room. "Oh, you actually showed up. Thought i was gonna have to find you." "Looks like i saved you the worry," i roll my eyes again.

Dan walked up to me and stood in front of me."Why am i here exactly?" I ask. "I thought i could give you what you deserve," he says smirking, that smirk is so cruel and cold. But so hot at the same time. I smirk back,"And that is." "First of all this," he then punches me in the stomach causing me to curl up on the floor in pain,"That is for talking back." Dan then kicked me in the side causing me to scream and cry in pain,"and that is just for being a little worthless faggot." Dan then laughed mercilessly.

I lied on the floor crying, let me inform you that no matter how hard it would hurt, i would never cry when dan beat me up. I usually wait till he is out of sight to cry but i just couldn't take it. This man has been hurting me physically, mentally, and emotionally for quite a long time. I just cried my eyes out on the floor. "Quit crying," dan said,"Stop being a little bitch and get up."

"I hate you," i whisper. "What?" "I said, I HATE YOU!" i yelled at him. I got up on my feet and continued,"I FUCKING HATE YOU DAN HOWELL. YOU MAKE MY LIFE A LIVING HELL." Dan stood there,"What did you just say?" "I SAID I HATE YOU! I HATE YOU SO FUCKING MUCH! I HATE YOU BECAUSE I LOVE YOU!" I heard dan gasp, he didn't say anything at this point. I lowered my voice a bit,"I always loved you, and it hurts. You obviously would never love me back. And that hurt me, knowing you'll never like me hurts me more than the actual beat up, and go ahead tell the whole school i couldn't care less because there is nothing you could do that can cause me more pain than you already did. You can't break the broken Daniel, and that's your fault, it's your fault that i'm broken. I hate you because i am so madly in love with you." I looked down not wanting to look at his face.

Dan's POV
I was feeling a mixture of feelings, shock from the sudden outburst, sad from seeing him in so much pain, mad bacause i am such a fucking idiot, and excitement because the person i've been in love with since the first day i layed eyes on just confessed that he loves me back.

Phil's POV
Dan walked closer to me, i looked up at him. He grabbed my face and kissed me. I was in shock and was so confused, i pulled away,"What are you doing?" I ask. "Phil i'm sorry, i am so sorry. I'm such an idiot for hurting you," Dan began to cry,"It would always hurt me when i hurt you. You're my first ever guy crush not to mention the first person i fell in love with, i got scared that i might be gay and i always thought you'll never like someone like me so i took out all my anger on you and i regret it. I'm fucking in love with you Philip Lester and i just want you to kiss me." I was shocked yet again. I leaned in and kiss him passionately. He held on to my face to deepen the kiss as my hands rested on his neck. Then the kiss turns heated, i spun us around and pushed him against the wall.