Lost in his own creativity

Chapter 2: ziggy steal the show and more

Bowie and I, was waiting our boss for his first paid. I light a cigarette and david take my cigarette. I frowned my eyebrows and he just ignored me. I know he don't like to see me smoke, but I was a a little nervous and I couldn't wait more. Ruben was late and we needed those moneys for pay our rent.

He never be late before, where he's!
Don't worry, maybe he have something more important to do than pay us.
Come on David, that's not help me to relax
That's wasn't supposed to...

He was a bit nevous too, he's also more sarcastic than habitually. Ruben join us at 19pm, he was 2 hours late.

I couldn't calm down and I show him how much I'm disappointed. He take a sit in front of us.

You're late!
And you're not boss, right?
I know, now our money's !

He gave us two envelopes and left the bar without say anything, I saw only 300 dollars in mine and david told me he have the same.

That's son of bitch!
Relax we can pay the big girl now
And we gonna eat nothing this month.
I'm not a hungry dude so
I need to eat me, we aren't all anorexic

I was too angry and I regretted directly what I said, he was that positive and I couldn't because that's job was everything that I've for have money's

He pay us like I worked alone, I'm sorry for what I said.
Don't worry, you're right so... What we do now?
We paid her, then we will find another apartment.. Because We can't eat and pay everything with only 600 dollars.

I could see he feel useless, I take his hand shyly and smile before give him a kiss on his cheek.

Don't worry
That's my fault, if only I didn't lost my job
That's not your fault, we will find a solution

At 10pm, we join the apartment and I laid beside him after take a shower. I made two sandwiches and david take a bit before sleep. I was very upset to see him don't take care of himself, he was very slim and also adorable when he sleep. I wrapped my arms around his chest. He opened his eyes, he have the most beautiful eyes I ever seen, we kissed and he turn off the light.

I love you
I love you too

Now you know everything about them and how they meet. Now we can return in the present.

Today was the first September 1973, david become one of the most famous singer and also the most gorgeous man from the UK. Today was also his first concert in japan and also again my first time outside UK. That's alot of also no?

David was in the bathroom for get ready for his concert. I was more nervous than him, I get ready before him and he opened the bathroom door. That's was the first time I see him with makeup and dressed like ziggy and he looked so beautiful but that's wasn't my husband anymore in this situation. His personality and appearance wasn't david, some could think he's a good actor but for me that's was more, it's been a long time I didn't see him, after 7 years of marriage I still love him even I hear about he cheated me and I never find the courage to talk about it with him.

ziggy was standing silently and fix his makeup In front of the mirror, we left his hotel room. Then take a taxi, he didn't say one word and I too. Until we was in front of that big building, he get close for a second and i could feel his lips on mine and told me with his deep voice.

I'm happy you're here Esther
I'm happy as you, that you invited me

I left ziggy in the car and his bodyguard follow me until I take a sit in the VIP seat, david wasn't there apparently and ziggy seem steal the show again, I could see a few of rock stars in the room and also some gorgeous groupie. I feel a kinda umcomfortable but I don't want to lost him and upset ziggy, I couldn't forget how we meet and how he was a gentleman some years ago. I know he will stop to see those gorgeous womens if he kill that pervers character or I'm just naive like every rock stars wife's in this room. This room smell alcohol and drugs and there a sexual tension who reign and make me feel more umcomfortable. I wasn't in my place here. I take a glass and drink a little. A girl sat beside me, she seem drunk and high even the show don't start. She introduced herself to me and she seem curious.

Hi I'm nora what your name sweety?
.... I'm Esther... I'm david wife
Oh... You're his wife? I never hear about you.

She seem arrogant and also laugh at me even I didn't lie, I take my jacket and go outside for smoke a cigarette. I wasn't ready for this, I know he wouldn't stay with me now he's famous and rich. I'm still that girl who work in vinyl store to him and who disappeared for his parents life for live with a stranger that I meet only some weeks before I decided to live with. My dress was old and also priceless to me, that's was my grandma who made it to me. I miss her, I hear david voice and the concert just started. I'm still feel depressed to see him don't notice I wasn't inside, but he's busy now.

I joined the hotel room, I show my identity card to the woman and she show me our room. I sat on the bed, I tried to catch my tears. She caressed my back.

Everything okay miss bowie?
I'm sorry...
Don't be, what happened?
Nothing just.. I need some rest
If you need anything, call me
Thanks you

I fall asleep alone in the bed, at 4am ziggy join me and laid beside me . He take me in his arms and I let him and laid my head on his chest.

Why you cheated me?
That's not a big deal, we still love each others.
The principe to be married is two persons who love each others and don't cheat each others david.
I'm sorry, if it's can make you stop to yell on me.
Why? You don't love me or?
Come on, that's not the problem just you wasn't there and I was feel alone.
You was alone because you never invited me to join you!
The true is I want to have fun and discover new things. 
Fuck you! 

I sat, I put my hands on my face and I'm very upset by his shitty attitude.

You kill that's asshole or I left
Kill ziggy? 
Yes
If I kill him, it's only for create a new one.
You don't want to keep me with you so?
I never say that, I need ziggy for some more concerts.
One more! If he still alive tomorrow, I'll get back to brixton.
Okay, I need time for wrote something.

David stood up and sat at his desk at 7 am he still woke up, I sleeping since 5am. I opened my eyes and he was in a fancy bathrobes with some stars on it. I walked and wrapped his shoulders shyly.

Hi
Shhh

He was concentrates and I kiss his neck. He seem angry.

Don't...
I don't have the right to kiss your neck now?
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45 years ago, bowie killed ziggy so it's dedicated to one of my favorite characters played by david. In this story, ziggy is manipulative. So be careful when you read what he reply to bowie wife.