|teentaetans|
Hoseok put the screwdriver to my face and I just froze. He claims that he loves me so he wouldn't hurt me..
Right?
I could feel my heart going a mile a minute and my palms got all sweaty. This was fear; fear of what he'd do to me. "H-hyung... move that thing away from me" I said below a whisper, just loud enough for him to hear.
"Why? Are you scared?" He asked, moving closer.
"N-no"
"Then why are you stuttering?"
"I'm not. Now move!" I yelled at him before pushing him off. I tried to run out of the room but he grabbed onto me and placed me onto my bed. He then sat on top of me and frowned. "Tae, why are you so angry with me?" he asked.
I should be asking him that question.
"I'm not angry with you but you're acting all weird. What were you planning to do with that screwdriver? And you were talking like a crazy person saying shit like 'you'll have to accept me for who I really am' and other things" I told him. Hoseok moved his face closer to mine and gave me a small smile.
"It's true, isn't it?"
"Huh?"
"If we're together that means that you'll have to get used to how crazy I actually am. If you think it's bad now, wait until you get to know me even more. I just want you to be prepared."
Prepared? Prepared for what? I don't trust a word he's saying so I'm not agreeing to anything. "Hoseok, when did I ever say that we were going to be together?" I asked him. He folded his arms in front of him then pouted.
"You don't want to date even though we both admitted our feelings?" he replied, answering my question with another question.
Do I want to date a freaking psycho person like Jung Hoseok who can kill me at any given time?
No.
What if he becomes even more possessive? I mean, he got jealous when I was with Jungkook back when we were dating. Not to mention that I didn't know Hoseok very well at that time. If we actually start a relationship wouldn't things get worse?
More getting kidnapped, more being forced to do things that I don't want to do, more being stalked, and pretty much becoming completely miserable. I'm also still young and I don't know if I'm willing to throw everything that I've worked so hard for away just to be with him. Who knows if it'll end well?
"Tae, you're not saying anything. What's wrong?" Hoseok asked, snapping me back to reality.
"Nothing is wrong" I assured. "I'm just thinking."
He looked at me with a sad look in his eyes.
"If you don't like me in that way, just say it. I'd rather you be honest and reject me directly instead of giving me false hope that we'd be together one day"
"Ho-"
"It's okay, Taehyung. I'm not mad at you. It's my fault that I'm so damn unlikable"
"Ho-"
"Is it because I scare you? Am I too scary? I can't help it that I'm so scary sometimes. I should probably go see a doctor or-"
"Will you shut up for just one second?!" I snapped.
Hoseok didn't seem to appreciate me yelling at him. He threw the screwdriver at the picture of Jungkook and I that was hanging on the wall. At first I thought he was aiming for me but when I saw him glaring at Jungkook I knew otherwise. He watched in delight as the frame shattered. "Why did you have to lie to me?" He asked before putting his hands up to his hair and pulling it. "I trusted you.."
|notursunshine94|
I feel like I can't breathe. Why are the walls closing in on me? Why does Taehyung have that look on his face?
"Hobi, you have to relax. You're panicking" Taehyung said. He placed his hand on my shoulder but his touch didn't feel the same. It's usually warm and comforting but this time it was the complete opposite. His hand felt like needles piercing through my shoulder.
"You have to breathe, hyung!" he exclaimed with a look of worry.
It hurts.
"Hoseok!"
It really hurts.
"You're scaring me.."
It feels like I'm dying.
Taehyung wrapped his arms around me and I just couldn't move no matter how much it hurt. He hugged me so tightly yet I ironically didn't feel safe. I was afraid of his eyes, his strong gaze that was out to get me.
I was afraid of his lips that would only betray me in the end.
"Taehyung, I..."
"Are you okay now??"
He slowly placed his hands onto mine and removed them from my head. "Everything is going to be okay" he whispered. I nodded and he rested his forehead on mine. Taehyung stared at me for a while before finally sighing then speaking.
"I'll date you and I guess we'll see how crazy things can get."
