alexis POv
i awoke late at night , God i hope i didn't wake up . when i realized i was in the arms of a monster who made me want to end my life for good . his grip on me as if he would never let go , and i noticed , "tears" was pouring unstopble from his baggy eyes . his face structure is crunched up as if he looked frustrated , is he crying himself to sleep? is it because of me? , the thoughts running in my head . he can't possibly have feelings . a monster like him isn't able to have one .
i moved my body out from his tight grip.as i wiggle around to get away from his arms , my wrist hurts as if a sharp knife was tugged inside in , i realized that now my hand was bandaged and stiched properly . did he do this? why would he want to save me?then i remembered i did this because of him , i gasped in pain , it's when his eyes fluttered open .
his eyes were glassy his lips was chapped , and i saw that his hands was bruising , as he tightened the grip on my back . i stared at him , trying to figured out what was on his mind ,
"i'm sorry" he muttered softly
"i did this to you" he took my hand slowly and kissed it softly , to be honest i was suprised , really suprised
all the memories of him raping me , suddenly came washing back through my head , my head was filled by those undying nightmare he had planted on me . i grasp my wrist away from him , and backed away from him to the edge of the bed .
"no no please .. don't be scared of me, please" his eyes pleaded to me
i can't say anything . is this even dane?but the real dane i know was harsh and rude and abusive and i wont even describe how he had scarred me for life .
my backed hit the edge of the wooden bed . as he crawl closer to me
i was terrified
"say something . please?" he pleaded to me
"who are you"? i managed to muttered . because honestly , i've never seen this pasrt of him . the gentle part
"i am me , dane , i'm sorry .. so so fucking sorry" he said as he gritted his teeth on the last part
"i don't know" i said softly , he took my hand in his as he stared to me
"please , forgive me" he pleads to me for what seems like a hundred times ..
"i ... i cant" i stuttered out as i bravely said the shouln't have said words
i realized that the veins on his neck are trying to hold back the anger and sadness upon my rejection
that's when the real him came back again .
he stood up from the bed . and slap the lamp on his bed post .
"fuck! how many times do i have to say it?!! i'm fucking sorry!!!" he yelled to me
"seriously?!!!! i just woke up almost dead because you pushed me to this , you raped me and you expect me to forgive you?!! do you think i'm an idiot?!" i managed to yell back . i am seriously angry right now .
how dare he tried to say sorry to me after all he had done . and worst of all he tried to make me forgive him
"fuck you alex!!!" he pointed me to my face as he raised his hands
"go on hit me !!! show me what a monster you truly are!!!..eventhough you sticht my wrist and saved me .. you're still nothing but a cruel god damned MONSTER!!!" i said bravely
earning a slap through my face as my head fall to the bed .
" i didn't sticht your wrist , i didn't save you" he gritted his teeth as he runs his finger through his ruffled hair
as i sit back up "who did it? did you kill em?who saved me?! fucking monster , i am not afraid of you!!"
to my suprise he laughed
"nahh .. not yet at least but , monster huh? you haven't even seen the worst part of me yet sweetie . but you're about to"
he walked closee to me and grabbed my hair as i yelped in pain .. the memories of him raping me come rushing back at me again
"no please !! not again!! pleaseee!!"
"you're the one who said that i'm a monster " he took the knife from his drawers and drew it near to my lips
"no .. please .. no!" i whispered to him
"just seconds again you said you weren't afraid of me.. are you now??"he taunted me
i was so lost in fear . that i constanly nodded
"good girl .. ( he patted my head and his smirk grow wider) now what should we do with that dirty mouth of yours? cut it maybe?"
he put the knife beside my lips and held my hair so strong and still as i whimpered and beg for his mercy
"no .. i'm sorry.. i wont say something like it again"i begged to him
"tut .. tut , as he put his knife to the middle of my lips .. should've thought about that before saying it eh?"
he pressed the knife to my lips as i feel a sharp pain building inside me as blood gushed out of my now cutted lips
"stopppp pleasee" i cried to him..
suddenly his eyes go soft as he looked at me . he stepped away from me and dropped the knife
"fuck!! what have i done?" he whispered to himself .
"alex?" he kneeled closer to
"no no stay away!!!" i pusheh his chest away from me ..
as i saw him knocking down a few furniture .. my eyes filled with tears that everything seemed blurry
"Fuck!! why!! why did i do that!!. goddd ... " then he broke down to the floor
just crying ... he sat on the floor next to the bed , crying ..
i actually felt sorry for him .. it's like he had this two sides of him that he cant control
