I know I have scars, I know you think they are ugly, I know you hate looking at them everyday but you need to learn to deal with it, cause you don't have to live with them, you don't deal with their constant reminding that you screwed up, you don't know the feeling of fighting yourself everyday for almost 17 years, that number keeps going up as i age, i'm sorry but you'll never know my pain, cause your not me, you cant feel what i feel, you may think that empathy is all it takes but its so much more than that, its the restless nights spent crying because i don't feel worthy enough, its the tears shed because i know she could do so much better, its every lie told right to my face by those who claim they wont abandon me but end up doing it anyway because i'm too clingy, its the constant fear of her or anyone i consider family leaving, i wish the scars would stop reminding me, because after all is said and done they wont go away, and that's okay because i'm used to them, they may fade but they will never disappear, i'm trying to get better, this is my process not yours, so stop telling me you don't like my scars, cause if you keep treating it like its a disease its gonna become one, i may do my best to beat this, but with out help i'll never make it, so i'm sorry for my scars, i'm sorry you don't like they, i'm sorry you think i care
