shit.
Suddenly I am on my feet, up the stairs, and walking to my room. The door closes behind me. I would rather not have any distractions right now, especially since I missed it last night. I can't afford to screw things up more than I already have.
I sit on my bed across the room, still catching my breath. I'm trying to calm down but it's easier said than done. Why is my heart beating this fast? I look at my watch again.
It's 11:09:43.
Thirty seven seconds since the last time I checked. Nine minutes and six seconds since my phone reminder went off. Twelve hours since I missed it last night. Twenty four hours since I was sitting just as I am now, still trying not to cry.
I refuse to miss it today. I breathe deeply and bring my wrist back up.
11:10:50.
Ten seconds. Finally.
I count backwards from nine and watch as the minute hand ticks just barely forward. It's time.
I manage to take in yet another deep breath and close my eyes. I ignore the tears threatening to escape and drown the world out. I can no longer hear anything except for my heartbeat as I say to myself, to anyone that will listen,
I wish that things would go back
to the way they were. I wish that
I had never said anything. Please
just let him forget everything I did.
please. I miss him. I need him.
After a few more seconds I open my eyes.
It's 11:12:02.
And the next twelve hours of my unfortunate existence seem pointless.
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11:11 make a wish | jjk
FanfictionJungkook's affection for another band member is not returned, leading him to become fixated on the superstitious powers of 11:11. Will his wishes come true? Or will he find love elsewhere? started june 2018
