santa cruz sand - a cake fanfiction

one • [oops]

wow this is a really bad time to start writing considering I just got acrylic nails and I'm typing on my phone but we'll see what happens 😂

just a warning that this story will have some depressing themes and there will be talk of anxiety, though it is not too dark. if that is something you aren't comfortable with/can't deal with then you might not want to read this story.

also bear in mind that I don't own any characters in this story, unfortunately. :) enjoy

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it's mesmerizing how the moonlight made things look fake sometimes. like the pool sitting 10 feet away from Luke was animated - almost as if it should be in a cartoon.

but Calum, he never looked so real. so alive and definitely not fake. not just a figure that would disappear in the blink of an eye.

sitting there in a pool chair watching him dance to whatever music was playing, Luke's heart was in knots.

he swears he could daydream there forever. instead of going up and dancing with Calum like a normal person would, he just wants to sit there and soak it in. (plus Luke definitely does not want to admit that he's nervous about it)

nervous why? Luke's practically in a friend group with Calum and has known him since last year. but for some reason he feels closed off from him. feels like he's in a totally different realm when Calum was around him. while the brunette boy is all smiles and calm and collectedness, Luke is a confused, cripplingly anxious, and clumsy boy.

but the thing that Luke doesn't know is that Calum has his moments. he has days where he can't think straight and days where he isn't feeling himself. times where he's unsure of himself and his mind races at things that are easy to process...for some.

"hey man. you doing okay?" Michael slaps him lightly in the chest and breaks Luke out of his daydream.

the blonde quickly averts his eyes to his shoes to make sure Michael didn't catch who he was looking at. though, before he shifts his eyes to his mate, he steals a quick glance and sees that Calum is now leading a girl back into the house where the party is.

Luke wonders if anyone could tell that he wasn't too much of a partier.

"oh yeah I'm good. just not one for parties I guess." he takes a sip of some cheap beer from his red solo cup.

Michael nods but still looks concerned. "alright. tell me if there's anything bothering you, yeah?"

Luke nods with a tight smile. "hey, uh where's Ash at?"

the platinum blonde haired boy looks back at the house and shrugs. "last time I saw him I think he was singing Gaga karaoke." he said with a laugh.

Luke chuckled and nods. "I think I'm gonna get out of here soon though. I can take you home if you'd like?" the blonde got up out of the chair he was sat in.

"nah I think I'll give Ashton a ride home later. I'm pretty sure Cal was looking for a ride home though. I know you don't know him too well but if you wanna ask..." Michael trails off running a hand through his hair.

"uhh okay I'll go look for him." he already feels the slight panic rising in his stomach as his heart started beating out of his chest.

Luke follows Michael into the big house and they end up going their separate ways - Michael to go hang out with Ashton and Luke went on the hunt for Calum.

he really really really hopes he doesn't have to go upstairs to find Calum. that is something he definitely does not want to do under any circumstances.