if you want to be a model
you have to look like one too
the scale doesn't lie, no
you can't be 132
just drop a few more
a little longer will do
the longer you fast
the faster they'll want you
because once you've met Ana
the world will want to, too
that's not the body they want
that's not the type they see
Ana says, "you have to look like me."
so i dropped a few more
oh look! 103!
Ana says i look skinny
like the models on the cover
but why do i feel
so under the weather?
i'm only 90 you see
this can't be good for me
Ana leave me be!
she said, "beauty isn't free."
i pass out on the floor
walk up to the door
open the lock
and live on once more
doctors say it's horrible
agents say it's normal
my friends are resentful
so i smile at them
and say, "I am a model."
but i can't stay this way
my visions gone grey
i'll weigh less and less
more and more depressed
until
i
fade
away
-"ana" rexia
**hey loves, personally, i do not struggle with an eating disorder. but my prayers go out to everyone who does. this poem you just read focus's mostly on standards in the modeling industry; but i know that's not the only place that it happens.**
to: whoever reads this
you are so beautiful, and no matter what standards society might hold against you; know that those standards aren't real. you were put on this earth for a reason: to be you. you are loved more than you know. you are loved by so many people. you are loved by me. you are enough. if you are struggling with an eating disorder, it is NOT your fault. please do me a favor and seek help. tell someone you trust. there is a way out. there are websites/hotlines made to help you. i'm always here for you too.
you are so, so strong. <3
-lil
