you decide if it's real

Chapter 11

The past few months have been absolutely insane.. scandals on top of scandals..

The only person that honestly and truly stuck by me was.... Erika.. I don't know where i'd be mentally without her.

April 1st, 2018

I have been thinking hard about Erika and this whole situation and I think it's time. We've been close for some time now and I think she wants me to make move. I have been emotionally stressed for 1 year and a half and she's the only thing that makes me forget about it all.. she completes me. One thing Erika has always told me was that she wanted to go to a basketball game and I think that'll be the perfect surprise for her.

April 23rd, 2018

Tomorrow morning, I'm going to vlog everything that's going to happen and hopefully get a good reaction from Erika.. I've never been this nervous.. not even when preforming in front of thousands.. this doesn't compare at all. I bought the tickets to the Philly game that's tomorrow and I bought a pretty sweet hotel room. If all things go to plan, I'm finally asking Erika to be my girlfriend... I don't want her to keep asking herself what we are.. I want her to know... I want her to know she's mine... Jake Paul's girl.

April 24th, 2018

I just broke the news to Erika that we're heading to Philly in an hour. Surprisingly, she wasn't upset that I told her last minute which honestly warmed my heart. We got to the car and I noticed that she looked a little confused. I grabbed her hand and asked her what was wrong. "Where's Nathan?" she says looking around. I slightly laughed and said, "He's not tagging along". I noticed she got excited and with that, we were on our way to the airport.

We finally arrived in Philly and we immediately went to change for the night. Erika usually figures out where we are going but this time, she was at a loss of words. I slipped away from Erika's view and managed to write her "Do you want to be my girlfriend?" on a piece of paper. If she says no, which i'm hoping she doesn't, I'd be very disappointed and discouraged... ugh, I think this is the nerves talking...

Later that night

The team was winning and I wanted to make a point that I scored her and that she's the only one I want. I asked my friend's son to give Erika the paper and so we waited for the perfect time. He gave her the note and she instantly smiled. I had no clue what that meant so i proceeded to wait. "Finally!" she manages to say. I go in for a kiss and she grabs me tight. I didn't want to be with anyone else. I honestly didn't know how to express how happy I felt. I haven't been this happy since I lived in Ohio.. All I wanted to do was scream "We're boyfriend and girlfriend!" , so I did. She was trying not to cry and that really made me weak. I wiped her tears and whispered in her ear, "you're finally mine, baby".

Four Months Later

Our relationship continues to thrive and I've never been so in love. I honestly think i'm going to marry this woman one day. Give it five years and she'll have my last name.

And there you go. There's the confusing story of how Erika Costell became the love of my life and the most important thing to me. People out there might hate but at the end of the day, she's my girl, my happiness, and my life. This was our story...

To be continued..