Live Or Love

Chapter 3

•••KANG MIN AH POV•••

"Why are you embarrassing me dad?! You could've talk to me. Why resort to making my life in danger?! You knew how scared i was?!"

"I have no explanation for that. I apologized. But you're just not gonna listen to me right?" Dad is making an excuse.

"Also you're embarrassing me here too. Look at your attitude, in front of your favorite idols? Do you have what it takes to faced them once you became their manager?!" He was raising his voice.

"And one more thing, i'll cut all of your allowances not unless you take this job. You can't call your mom and get help from her because she already knows about this. It's either you lose everything or you take my offer. It's that simple Min-ah. I'm not doing this to manipulate you. I'm doing this to teach you how to make a living. You can think of this as a punishment if you want."

I want to talk back but i was suprised. Mom knows it?! What is he talking about?! Cut off my allowance?! Is this what both of them were planning all along?! Oh how nice. But he has a point. In front of my favorite idols, i can't act like this. Lemme just let go of this one. Fck! I mean this is so bittersweet. I also want to work with Bangtan. I have to make this one right.

"FINE! I'LL DO IT!" I'm really pissed off. I'm crying and my knees are so weak. But i have to do this.

Dad opened the door for me.

"KANG MIN AH. I guess you have something to say to them?." I know, i know. You don't have to say it twice. He does get on my nerves.

I faced Bangtan without a doubt and apologized sincerely to them.

"I'm really sorry for causing you so much trouble! I do apologized towards my rude behavior! I'm sorry for putting you under so much stress and confusion. I was a victim as well but it's not right if i won't take responsibility here. I hope you can forgive me! Jebaaal."

They all look like angels and it feels like i'm in heaven. I was not able to control myself, my knees are wobbling and lost my energy. I was suddenly on the floor. I am so embarassed. My heart is pounding and tears are flowing from my eyes. I can't help it but cry.

Then Namjoon and Jin came to aid some help. They really are superheroes.

It's okay. It's not your fault, don't worry. Get up now and stop crying already." Namjoon is so sweet. But i started to cry again.

"That's enough, you really don't need to cry." Jin helped me get up too. What have i done? I don't deserve there kindness.

"I'm really really really sorry Bangtan. Bang PDnim mianhee." I'm still embarassed about what i did.

Bang PDnim told me that he saw me before. But i was really not paying any attention because i really wanted to go home.

So i politely asked them if we can continue some other time. Thank God and they all agreed. So kind hearted persons. I can't take all of it. Something sharp is piercing through my heart.

And i saw all of there smiles. And before i start to cry again, i picked up my bag and went out. I left my Dad holding the door opened for me.

When i got in the car. I bursted out. I did not hold back and cried 'till my eyeballs hurt.

I kind of have this habit of crying myself out. I mean i just need to cry to let all of my emotions poured. Because if i did not do it, everything's gonna be bottled up inside me and it will just turn out in anger.