Live Or Love

Chapter 26

••• Namjoon POV •••

I got so drunk last night that i almost forgot that we have work today. These days, we've been getting schedules right after one another. Its tiring but its so hard to keep up without a manager! It feels like i'm doing multiple jobs without Min Ahsshi. I really am crazy for hurting her. I'm so sorry Kang Min Ah. I can't complain about it.

"Hey, why aren't you ready yet?." Sunniesshi barge in my room. She's with us while Min Ah's on leave. "I'll be out in a jiffy." I stood up but she gave me a death stare. "I know, i know. You're also mad at me because of what i did to your friend." I nodded my head. "Yes! I'm so mad at you right now! Also, she's my bestfriend! In fact, she's the only friend i have and you hurt her!." She kick my legs. "Ow! S-stop! I-i got it! I'm sorry." I rubbed my legs because it hurts! She has a stingy attitude i can't stand ever since. I can't handle her so i send her off my room."You should've apologize to her atleast!." She shouted outside. Hearing those first thing in the morning made me so irritated. "I did! I did apologize to her! She won't talk to me! What would you want me to do, huh!." Aigooo, this is sucking up all my energy so i went to the bathroom. I already apologized to her, if you all know what i have done.

Even Adrianna got mad at me yesterday because she thought i defender her. Oh i'm a fool! Fool! Stupid! I'm going crazy right now! "Ottoeke?. (What should i do?)." I really don't have any idea but after taking a bath, i dialed Adrianna's phone. "Good morning babe! Did you sleep well?." I asked her. "Uhmm, yeah." She's still cold as ice even after we broke up and now were dating again. She hangs up the phone, i guess she's still mad at. Before i could put down my phone, i've dialed Min Ah's number again. Anxiously waiting for her to answer but i was no luck.

We went to work and i've been working on new songs but i couldn't think at all. I'm so distracted about everything. "Whatever! Let's do this!." I accidentally banged my legs through the table while i stood up. "Where are you going?." Hobi ask me. "Something came up, go home without me i'll be late." I didn't gave him a chance to speak and went outside. With no plans in my head, i headed to PDnims office. "If you're here because of Min Ahsshi, you may leave now." Bang PD shrugged me off right away. "Please, PDnim. I'll do everything you ask me to. Just please. I'm begging you." I bowed down.

I couldn't think of anything but my own guilt has been over powering me. "Kim Namjoon!." I got startled when PDnim shouted at me. "You don't have to come here for two days straight because of her!." He's scolding me. "PDnim! I'm not doing this just because of her! Its because of me! Yes, mainly Min Ah's the reason why but i just can't stay still without doing anything! I can't deal with my own guilt. So please." Instead of sitting down, i slowly bend my knees to ask for his permission but PDnim grab me up quickly.

"Are you all out of your minds?!." He held my arms tightly. I looked at him with confusion.

"Yah! All of you! Why do you have to go all the way here to ask for my permission! I don't want to be the bad guy! You see, Hoseok and Yoongi was here a liitle while ago! The other day, Taehyung and Jin went here!." I didn't know the boys were going out to see PDnim.

"Its's because she's important." I whispered.

"What did you say?!." He asked me.

"I said its because she's important. To me. To all of us!." I emphasized it.

He let out a deep sigh while he face palmed his head in frustration.

"Pdnim please i-." He raised his hand to stop me.