Sometimes I feel crazy . Like the life I live is not valuable enough for anything in the world....Well not for me I'm broken and tore inside. Sometimes it shows sometimes it doesn't sometimes I wanna laugh at everything that's sad. I don't wanna be sad forever.i cry when I'm hungry and I hate it because I don't wanna be afraid or sacred or pussy to a reaction that doesn't need one. So simple for things that could be said by my mother my feelings get hurt I become pussy to myself cause I hate crying . I wanna be numb to everyrhing having feelings slowly means nothing to me. My love life is going in happy about that. That's one feeling I can't give up but everything else I wish I was numb to. When I get older I plan to duck off onto my own life and forget my past. I rather smoke so many blunts I forget about yesterday. I'm not the same I was before . I wish I was younger . That little girl I saw in pictures she smile big about everything. I don't know what for because this life means nothing. When it's my last day I hope I mean something to somebody and that my name will live forever. This is no suicidal thought this is more like a clear head. I left the poison out through my fingers and you read it through your eyes. I changed.... .
