Thoughts, Poems, And Depression

Thoughts That Bother Me

I can't stop thinking about the fact that I could end up losing everything in a second's time. I mean, not everyone has a great life, but I've already been through the whole 'losing trust and trying to gain it back' thing. I hate it. I've been threatened. And it's been worrying me, because I know there are people out there with far more power than I'll ever have. I'm just a teenager. How the hell  I supposed to handle the real world? I'm terrified. I want to be able to know that I could handle myself and live on my own, and I do partially believe that I can do it, but I won't lie. I'm still scared.

I fear that I'll lose the people I care for most as well. My family, my friends. We all still die. Nothing lasts forever... But I honestly don't want to lose anyone. Not yet anyways. I can't.

And I also realize something. Being alone and depressed is one of the worst things that can happen to someone. I mean, I have no one to distract me from my thoughts, and then I end up having mental breakdowns and shit. And being alone at night is a terrible time to be depressed. I learned that after ending up at the start of a mental breakdown while I was trying to sleep and was locked in my bedroom(not literally.)

So, to those of you with depression problems, try to find a friend that can help you. Friends are important, not only because they keep you company, but because they can understand what you're going through sometimes. And even if they don't, if they're true friends, they'll try their best to comfort you anyway. Always stay strong, and try to find someone yoi can trust and talk to. That's what I did.

Music helps too. Try listening to a lot of music.