Curvaceous Not Fat

Ja'hara

I couldn't stand there looking at him anymore. I couldn't believe the things he'd just said. He was one of the only ones who never spoke about us that way and here he was saying it. I ran as fast as my legs would carry me all the way to the girls' bathroom and just bawled everything in my heart out. It felt like I was going into cardiac arrest the way the muscles that was my heart was pushing against my chest. It hurt, I wasn't going to lie. It hurt like hell. After a few minutes of crying, I left the bathroom not bothering to look in the mirror. I just dabbed at my eyes hoping I clear away all the mascara smudges. I could see Ally hugging Ashton as I approached what remained of our little group. I felt bad all of this was happening because of me.

"This was suppose to be the best year full of fun. We don't have Justin anymore and it hurts. I can't believe he said that."said Ally with her face in Ashton's chest.

"Neither can I." I said as she turned from Ashton's chest as I continued to walk towards them. My eyes swollen and I was sure my face was puffy from crying. Ashton and Dave hugged me as Brad and Austin stayed near Al.

"Let's go. Fuck detention. I'll buy pizza and ice cream and we can watch chick flicks all night." Said Austin interrupting the silence as he stared daggers at Justin who was on the floor bleeding. No one was right there helping him. I sighed, I felt bad.

"Bastard is getting exactly what he deserves." Said Brad through clenched teeth.

"Give me a minute?" I said and before any of them could stop me, I was walking towards Justin. I had no clue what I wanted to say,but as I got closer to him I knew the pain will take charge and I'll wouldn't be able to stop talking. I took a deep breath and soon I was standing in front of him.

"Justin?" I asked and I had the strange urge to bend down and help him. I guess I was weak like that. Even though he was hurting me and Ally I was willing to forgive him and still help him, but I knew for the sake of my sanity I couldn't just give in like that.

"Get away from Ja'hara. I've said all I had to say."

"You might've you piece,but I have yet to say mine. I don't know what started this asinine behavior, but I hope its worth it. Look, I hope you're happy with the decision you've made and I'll admit this is probably what we deserve. We haven't been all jolly like fat bitches are suppose to be. Don't give me that look you said it yourself a few minutes ago. Anyways, its true we haven't been that nice, but every mean thing that we did or said was a retaliation to whoever did or said something mean to us. It's not like we go around picking on unsuspecting people. We're not fucking bullies, but what you did was so uncalled for. We've had you're back from the beginning. I've confided to you. You know the most personal things about and to just ditch us like that was wrong. To say those things about us was just wrong. We've been here and now look at you, you're sitting on the floor blood pooling out of you're face and none of your new friends are here. You ditched us and still Ally and I want to help you clean up the blood. You hurt us. The only reason they wanted you was to break us and congrats you succeeded. All because I couldn't find the strength and courage to give us a chance. I'm glad I didn't. I'm glad you decided to show your true colors before I went back on my words. See the thing is I did love you and you knew exactly how much. As a friend and as more then a friend. And you ditched us. Dropped us like a hot biscuit. Another food pun for the fat bitch, right. I can't believe you were my first kiss. I trusted you enough to be my first time. I thought you loved me also. You took my innocence Justin and obviously that's all you cared about. A good lay right?" I tried to hastily wipe away the constant tears that were sliding down my face. He stood up and I wanted to smack myself for the sudden surge of hope that swam through the blood in the flesh that covered my bones.

"I ditched you and Ally because you're fat bitches. You take your friendship with us for granted. I'm the first, but its only a matter of time before the others follow. I didn't love you and you weren't that good of a lay. Just another notch on my bed. Goodbye Jay." I watched as the same smirk he used when flirting with me plastered itself over his face. I wanted to spit in his face. Instead I walked back to the gang and tried not to break right then and there.

"Now we can go. Its obvious he never loved me otherwise he wouldn't have said or done any of that. He's been working with the enemy all this time. I hope he's happy with Lillian. He finally gets the size two he always wanted." So much for strength the tears came down rapidly, obviously not going to slow down anytime soon. We all left and I was happy no one asked me what was said between me and Justin. I don't know if I could forgive him after this. Maybe we were just getting what we deserve.