Curvaceous Not Fat

Allison

True to their word the guys tried their best to make us feel better. Dave even snuck in my room at around one in the morning thinking that we were sleep and said he was there for our late night make out session. The only thing was we had to go to sleep first. He smiled saying he'd wait and laid on my three piece king size bed in the middle of us. After few minutes after that Ashton came up to check on us and ended up laying on the other side of Jay. There was officially no room left. I was surprised they even fit with Jay and I still laying there. Soon Brad and Austin came up with sleeping bags and hella pillows. Needless to say that's where all the guys slept. On the floor surrounding us like guard dogs. They fell asleep quickly,but I couldn't get my mind off of Justin. None of it was making any sense. Yesterday morning he acted as if everything was okay. He cracked jokes ,hugged is as usual. So what could've changed? I heard a sniffle breaking me out of my thoughts. I turned to look at Jay only to see tears streaming down her face. It hurt me to see her so upset and broken. It also made me want to castrate him with my bare hands.

"Jay, sweetie you have to stop crying." I pleaded trying hard to keep the tears from falling, but failing miserably.

"I can't help it Al. Somehow I feel like we're only getting what we deserve. Maybe this is our karma for retaliating on those who bully us."

"You can't think like that Jay. Damn near most of the people on this planet believe you get what you serve. Meaning you can't do wrong and not expect wrong to be done back to you."

"Exactly Al. We did wrong by taking karma into our own hands and now its biting us in our big asses. Besides none of this would be happening of I just told him how I felt. Instead I waited until it was too late." I sighed. I knew this was a big part in why she was continuously crying. She had lost Justin in a way that none of us could compare.

"Ashton told us what you said. What made you say that?"

"I got scared Al. Like really scared. I never thought anyone would be interested in me and there he was constantly proving me wrong. He was my best friend, and every time he touched me or just even looked at me he gave me butterflies. He made my heart swarm. He had me wanting to run for the hills, but stay close by his side forever. He was my first kiss Al. My first time having sex. I've literally opened up to him in ways I've never imagined me doing. I got scared and said the one thing that I didn't mean and he turns on us. He ridicule and degraded us in front of people who hates us. He told me he never loved me and that I wasn't even a good lay. You know what hurts the most. After everything he said to me his last words were 'goodbye Jay' and he said them with that damn flirtatious smirk. He taunted me Ally and its all my fault. I deserve everything he's dishing out at me." I handed her a tissue to blow her nose before grabbing one for myself. She was having a full blown melt down right in front of me and it was breaking my heart. I opened my mouth to say something,but I was beat to it.

"You don't deserve this Lovebug and neither do you Ladybug. If Justin is hurting he has on hell of a way of showing it. I don't care what he has to say about it, the way he's going about it is wrong. He'll get what's coming to him. Don't worry we promised not to lay hands on him. No matter how much we want to, we won't. That's because we care about you. We won't leave your sides because things get a little rocky. Hell things have always been a little rocky. What Justin seems to forget is that we all been on the other side before. We was teased endlessly until his braves came off. Austin was teased about wearing glasses before he got contacts. Brad and I were chubby with horrible acne. We all know what its like to be on the other side and we try our hardest to make sure you two handle it better then we ever did. We sat there and took it and never bothered to fight back. You two are stronger then we'll ever be. Justin forgot what it's like to he the underdog. Let him be on top and have his moment. As they say it's lonely at the top, well hell for him it'll be lonely at the bottom also. Lovebug, don't ever feel like this is what you deserve. Nobody deserves to feel like their lesser then the dirt under a shoe. I don't care what anyone say. Listen to me. You aren't bullies you keep to yourself unless you are provoked. At that school they seem to like provoking you. You don't deserve this lash out because he decided to be a wuss and have his damn period for a while. He knew what you thought about yourself and how you were trying to cope because let's face it, him trying to love enough for the both of you wasn't going to work out. He was to blind to see that. I didn't know he was your first and knowing that just makes me want to punch his face repeatedly. He's an asshole. The biggest asshole I've ever met. Lovebug, you're beautiful, amazing, talented and very much so intelligent. You deserve all the love that you have that is yet to come. Don't ever let any tell you otherwise. When we were younger Ashton had a crush on you. Don't worry he's over it. You know what he said to me every time I told him to just go for it. He said you were to good for him and that you were out of his league and yes he's telling the truth. Baby, you two are goddesses and you deserve the best and you'll get the best if I have to cut of my own two hands to give it too you." I watched as tears streamed down his face and tried to wipe away my own.

It was hard to get Dave to cry. He was always to playful and flirtatious and being the uplifting spirit for us. It was rare to see him in this kind of light and I didn't like it. Justin was ruining us as a hole and it was getting to me. I patted the space between us and gestured for him to join us. He did as told using his shirt to wipe away the remainder of his tears.

"Ladybug, Lovebug I love you. I hate seeing you guys all hurt and broken up over some asshole. I get that we was once our friend, but there's no coming back from this. He made his bed now he has to lie in it. I'm sorry."

"It's okay Dave. We get it. We just miss him and it hurts to think that someone you never thought would turn on you could without a second thought." Said Ja'hara as she laid her head on his shoulder. We wrapped his arms around our waist and pulled us closer.

"It's life Lovebug. Things happen and people change."

"Totally off topic," I spoke. "How did we get the nicknames Ladybug and Lovebug? I mean you're the only one that call us that."

"That's because you're my ladybug. They're good luck so that makes you my good luck charm. And Jay is my Lovebug because despite whatever happens she's always so filled with love. When my mom died I needed some good luck and a whole bunch of love to get through it and you guys were there. Now get some sleep." Neither of us said anything else as we cuddle up with Dave and began to drift off to sleep. Nights like this I couldn't be any happier that we had friends like them.